I didn't mean like the one involuntarily took in the past month. =w= So, after my sudden hiatus, I'm disturbed to find that I can barely type and I can barely draw with my tablet anymore. >.>;; Seriously, one month of absolutely no access to my own computer left me having to remember everything all over again. I keep forgetting to check my messages, I fumble when I type, my movements with the tablet pen aren't as they used to be.

Of course other than that, I did pretty well with no access to my computer. It's just having to get used to typing and drawing again that's a peeve for me. XD; What was great though was using traditional media again. For the longest time, I've been wanting to go back to pencils, watercolors, etc. Of course the problem was that I never had a moment to myself. When I work on art, I prefer to be completely alone, no matter what I'm drawing. When I was in middle school and high school, I would always draw in class when there was nothing left to do. So, someone would always be next to me or watching me from over my shoulder, and I'm sure a lot of you know people will always make stupid comments: "they're naked, they're bald, this, that, etc." At one point my classmates asked me to draw Pokemon porn...involving Pikachu. c.c I don't know about anyone else here, but that's never been my thing.

And of course, there's always that very obvious feeling when you know people around you don't approve of what you're drawing. I like to draw fantasy/scifi sometimes things of dark nature, and being in a religious household, you tend to get told to not draw those things. I mean, c'mon, how am I going to explain "Bloody Hell" to them, and why a vampire would be wearing a shirt with a cross on it? XD I don't come from an artistic family (unless you count sewing and embroidery, which is what some of my relatives do), so it's just a little hard for some to understand the meaning, the concepts behind the images we artists make. And I really don't like to be told what I can't or can't draw - nobody does.

But I'm very lucky that my dad and a couple of my relatives do understand my passion for art. They just don't understand what I draw, that's all. XD; They're my biggest supporters in my family. They know how much I want to attend art classes, and go for a professional career in something artistic - that would be a dream come true. But it's not something I can do, I have to get a job (which I've still had no luck with so far), study for a different career then get it. Maybe then, while I work there I can study art and further improve. But until then, I'll have to stick with always being on the look out for tutorials, and of course critiques.

So, anyway, not having access to my computer during my hiatus wasn't what drove me insane...it was not having the chances to work on my art, especially when I listened to music and it would inspire an image. XD So, now that I have the chance to, I can continue working on my art. And luckily my scanner works, so I can post the new Bloody Hell pages soon. For a moment there, I was worried that I'd have to draw them all over again on the computer if it didn't work... And at this time, it's not like I can just run to the store and buy a new one. XD;

Man, it's good to rant and having a chance that someone will know what I'm talking about. XD