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i hope their scared of me now
14 years ago
Don't stress about tomorrow when today is not yet done.
this stupid mexican me and my mom are staying with right now has been hurting my mom. she is dying from his emotional and mental abuse. not to long ago i was about to have dinner and my thoughts started racing. i stood up and took deep breathes then my heart started beating uncontrolably. my breathing was loud and ragged and my hands went numb.
if my mom hadnt stopped me i would have went into a black out rage. i cant take this shit anymore. ive pressed my mom to move. but we have yet to. its set for the 1st now. if we dont move then. well. there will be two less abusive assholes in the world. i cant control my rage anymore. i cant do it.
if my mom hadnt stopped me i would have went into a black out rage. i cant take this shit anymore. ive pressed my mom to move. but we have yet to. its set for the 1st now. if we dont move then. well. there will be two less abusive assholes in the world. i cant control my rage anymore. i cant do it.
KitKat259
~kitkat259
*hugs tight*
Zaraxes
~zaraxes
OP
i havent been that angry in a long time. and my mate is trying to help but he doesnt understand that side of me that well. i made this journal in hopes that someone who has fealt what i have can help me... *hugs back*
KitKat259
~kitkat259
I'm sorry. But I haven't really felt that way. The only advice I can offer is to take time alone and listen to your favorite music. I'm sorry I can't be much help
Zaraxes
~zaraxes
OP
just talking to my friends helps somewhat. thank you very much.
KitKat259
~kitkat259
No problem =3
GrandDragoon
~granddragoon
I hope you two move out of there quickly.
Zaraxes
~zaraxes
OP
so do i. i dont want to be labled a murderer for defending my mother.
GrandDragoon
~granddragoon
Neither do I.
Zaraxes
~zaraxes
OP
i feel like a timebomb that people keep piling C4 around and playing with matches.
GrandDragoon
~granddragoon
I wish I knew what to say to you.
Zaraxes
~zaraxes
OP
its not others place to feel obligated to help me. at least you responded to the journal. that in itself makes me feel better. that even though im not on FA and my life is shit, i still have friends somewhere in the world.
GrandDragoon
~granddragoon
I wanna help you.
It is my obligation by the old laws. Keep on fighting the good fight is the only words I have. A day will come when the sun will set on another side until than we just must keep on going, suffering, and trying.
Zaraxes
~zaraxes
OP
your absolutely right. but being who i am i can only take so much. my own mind is turning against me.
Than turn it on something else. In times of greatest pains take a pen and scribble random ass shit like you have never before.
Zaraxes
~zaraxes
OP
eh. i guess i have nothing to lose. just hate all this bullshit.
Reian
~reian
*pets* that sounds shitty
Zaraxes
~zaraxes
OP
it is. it fucking sucks. my mom is literaly dying, and i cant lay a finger on those two. and its hard for me not to when i have so much rage. im about to blow apart
Reian
~reian
Well...Are they illegal? And just because you can't touch them doesn't mean you can't do something. Go to the cops, record a conversation between these people, there are lots of ways to do something where you come out the good guy...
Zaraxes
~zaraxes
OP
ive already take action against them. They are illegal and me and my mom have sent allot of evidence about them to the IRS. but it takes time to get things ironed out. ive tried being civil. where calling the cops tomorrow. but my brain is broke. and i have to much rage for a single person.
Reian
~reian
Good...Just remember...you do something to them beyond what you have done, you will ultimately be the one in trouble...
Chance13
~chance13
she's right I wish I could have said that better myself but reian you defiantely nailed that :3 thank you
Archnegisis
~archnegisis
You've very much done the right thing to start sending them to justice for being illegal in the US. If you must you should let them have a piece of your mind, in reasonable fashions without obvious anger, before they are sent back off to their country. You will leave them something to to ponder on during their return.
