You all hopefully know by now that I go to college in Kansas. The fact that I'm here is riding on the fact that I get in-state tuition because my dad lives here. I've been rekindling my relationship with my dad for about a year now, after having him not really having a part in my whole life as a result of a pretty bad drug addiction, as well as having an affair multiple times, both before I was bron and after. Things have been going pretty well so far since he's been a better person.

Things changed yesterday when I found out he was having an affair yet again, this time against my two sisters' mom. Now my world has been shattered again and I have no fucking clue what to do. I know a lot of people are ok with having open relationships, but when you've dedicated yourself to a closed relationship, as well as bringing it as far as a marriage, you don't fuck around. I don't have childhood memories of my father, and I tried to make up for that, but he's lost my respect. This is the last straw.

I was hesitant to say anything about it here, but I decided I need some outside help. I just don't know where to go from here...I may have grown up with no dad, but I finally got one for a few months, and now he's truly shown me that I don't mean jack shit to him.

The hardest part of ending is starting again...and I'm clueless as to where to go. If anyone has some helpful advice, I'd really appreciate it. I need some motivation to get on with my life, and I need to know what I can do to feel good again.

~CTE