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18 years ago
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I'm sure I'll think up something to say.
As far as getting a car, I'm up a creek without a paddle. I have no way of getting that money back, and in fact, my parents have to wait 90 days (!!!?!) and pay 28 dollars to get the check stopped. It's worthless. It's completely worthless.
I'm going to have to get a loan. I'm not going to wait for them to dump more money down the drain at me. Some people had the nerve to tell me that this was a sign that I'm not supposed to have a car. I don't care, whether they're right or wrong; this is something -I- want to do. I actually have a spine right now and I'm not going to beat it into submission out of baseless superstition. If I were to interpret a sign out of this, it would be that if I get a car, I have to take full responsibility for it, me, myself. Besides, if my parents still want to send me more money in the future, I can still use it to pay off the loan. if i feel like it.
I discovered that my bank is hiring. I'm sending a few applications that way. Or you could say I am hammering their Human Resources department from every angle I can possibly fire a resume from. NOBODY GIVES ME A FUCKING CALLBACK. NOBODY. Not about cars I want to buy or look at, not about work, not even my FRIENDS, when they say "i'll call ya back", I don't even get a voice mail! Is my phone BROKEN or some shit?
I'm just throwing this all in the furnace. Fuel. Try harder. I WILL BREAK THEM ALL, if I must. I'll find a way.
My job is a pain in the ass. And a pain in the back. And in my knees, feet, shoulders, neck, wrists, pick a joint, any joint. My roommates don't mind though, so, good for them. I congratulate them on the awesome jobs that they don't hate. I know that the Alpha comes home in excruciating agony, but she never says anything... we all know how much she hurts, but she never makes it anybody else's business... It would be nice if I could have that kind of strength. People only seem to notice how I feel when I'm attempting to not communicate it, anyways.
So far, of the things of mine that have fallen apart, I have replaced my wallet and my boots. My old boots were about to turn into flip-flops with much more wear than they had. My new ones are nice... they're tough, sturdy, and now they won't kill me a little more with every step since I bought some insoles, but they don't zip, so tying them is a ten minute endeavor. Bleah. Still no watch though. I've been using my cell phone to tell time.
I've refreshed the contents of my mp3 player a few times, and noticed that I'm growing quite fond of disco, especially Jake "Virt" Kaufman's kind of disco. What can I say? Disco does what it's supposed to do: make you move. Plus I like the kind of 'romantic' theme that he seems to cover a lot. Plus the lyrics themselves are beautifully phrased.
Also,
fennecwolfox finally gave me back my tablet!!! ^^
I'm so happy I could cry. I didn't have -any- outlets without it... I of course loved the beautiful things he was making with it, but not having that tablet was like needing to pee but looking down and finding out that you've been restricted to a G-Rating! It was a nightmare! I needed my wacom fix x_x;;;
And now that I have it, at least got one piece of art out... maybe if I'm lucky I'll have another to draw when I get home in the morning. This artistic constipation really sucks :(
It's just about time for me to start getting ready for work again... I haven't actually seen my roommates conscious for more than a day o.o I kind of wish I weren't such a hermit, but that's what I get for staying up till 10 in the morning while they were all at work... i had to sleep all the way up to now *sigh*
Third shift should be a crime against humanity...
As far as getting a car, I'm up a creek without a paddle. I have no way of getting that money back, and in fact, my parents have to wait 90 days (!!!?!) and pay 28 dollars to get the check stopped. It's worthless. It's completely worthless.
I'm going to have to get a loan. I'm not going to wait for them to dump more money down the drain at me. Some people had the nerve to tell me that this was a sign that I'm not supposed to have a car. I don't care, whether they're right or wrong; this is something -I- want to do. I actually have a spine right now and I'm not going to beat it into submission out of baseless superstition. If I were to interpret a sign out of this, it would be that if I get a car, I have to take full responsibility for it, me, myself. Besides, if my parents still want to send me more money in the future, I can still use it to pay off the loan. if i feel like it.
I discovered that my bank is hiring. I'm sending a few applications that way. Or you could say I am hammering their Human Resources department from every angle I can possibly fire a resume from. NOBODY GIVES ME A FUCKING CALLBACK. NOBODY. Not about cars I want to buy or look at, not about work, not even my FRIENDS, when they say "i'll call ya back", I don't even get a voice mail! Is my phone BROKEN or some shit?
I'm just throwing this all in the furnace. Fuel. Try harder. I WILL BREAK THEM ALL, if I must. I'll find a way.
My job is a pain in the ass. And a pain in the back. And in my knees, feet, shoulders, neck, wrists, pick a joint, any joint. My roommates don't mind though, so, good for them. I congratulate them on the awesome jobs that they don't hate. I know that the Alpha comes home in excruciating agony, but she never says anything... we all know how much she hurts, but she never makes it anybody else's business... It would be nice if I could have that kind of strength. People only seem to notice how I feel when I'm attempting to not communicate it, anyways.
So far, of the things of mine that have fallen apart, I have replaced my wallet and my boots. My old boots were about to turn into flip-flops with much more wear than they had. My new ones are nice... they're tough, sturdy, and now they won't kill me a little more with every step since I bought some insoles, but they don't zip, so tying them is a ten minute endeavor. Bleah. Still no watch though. I've been using my cell phone to tell time.
I've refreshed the contents of my mp3 player a few times, and noticed that I'm growing quite fond of disco, especially Jake "Virt" Kaufman's kind of disco. What can I say? Disco does what it's supposed to do: make you move. Plus I like the kind of 'romantic' theme that he seems to cover a lot. Plus the lyrics themselves are beautifully phrased.
Also,
fennecwolfox finally gave me back my tablet!!! ^^ I'm so happy I could cry. I didn't have -any- outlets without it... I of course loved the beautiful things he was making with it, but not having that tablet was like needing to pee but looking down and finding out that you've been restricted to a G-Rating! It was a nightmare! I needed my wacom fix x_x;;;
And now that I have it, at least got one piece of art out... maybe if I'm lucky I'll have another to draw when I get home in the morning. This artistic constipation really sucks :(
It's just about time for me to start getting ready for work again... I haven't actually seen my roommates conscious for more than a day o.o I kind of wish I weren't such a hermit, but that's what I get for staying up till 10 in the morning while they were all at work... i had to sleep all the way up to now *sigh*
Third shift should be a crime against humanity...
