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15 years ago
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My Realm is Evolving..
Yes indeed I am, finally.
To give you an idea of what I've gone through it would be like getting thrown in jail for doing nothing wrong while the person who really did it gets away with it for free.
Anyway,
You've heard the bloody details and I just want you to know I will not forget how I was treated through all of this.
What I mean is not you god no, who i mean is my parent for basically blowing me off to the curb and her IT lady for not allowing me to learn how to fix this myself and shutting me out.
I won't go into all the gory details because at this point it'd just be me tearing open salty wounds.
The parties involved and they know who they are will regret it once I'm on my own feet gone from this god forsaken jail cell. You want to make my blood boil be naive and don't care about me as a person while sitting there on your internet at your office blowing it off.
I promise you this woman should be lucky the worst I did was walk out. I could of packed my bags and left which I eventually will anyway because I hate The Woodlands now more then ever. I want to get to a place with better transportation options, more things to do and especially as far away from this center of hell.
All she had to do was say I'm here to support you. Instead she blew me off and put me in a living torture chamber with no keys,
Anyway,
Onto the stuff that makes me smile in those of you who wished me happy birthday.
Nach- Thank you so much! I really was not expecting you to surprise me like you did.
nievelion- Thank you so much for making my entire weekend so special and one I will never forget ;)
I know I shouldn't be saying this but after this morning I really hope we can become more then just friends ;)
You're such an awesome guy who went beyond what I was expecting. I never expected you to surprise me like you did and even if being boyfriends doesn't work out you'll always be my close friend.
In short, guys like you are the reason why I'm working so hard to break myself out of this situation forever so I can be with happiness.
You rocked my world twice baby and cemented it making me hope we meet sooner rather then later.
I'm starting to do my part, now you have to do yours. You want this to come true you earn it and you prove it :)
Oops did I just say somebody is trying to reel me in? Oh yes I did..
I like you Nie with all my heart. I wish I could say love but that's reserved for face to face ;)
Oh and I got some pictures I will post later of some funny moments I caught by the lake.
Thanks to everybody else for wishing me a Happy Birthday!
And to those who didn't it's ok because you really didn't have to but it was there.
So until next time..
Your Lion Writer,
SWSP
PS:
Yes, I'm still smiling Nie.. You're such a sexy awesome guy!
<3 ;)
To give you an idea of what I've gone through it would be like getting thrown in jail for doing nothing wrong while the person who really did it gets away with it for free.
Anyway,
You've heard the bloody details and I just want you to know I will not forget how I was treated through all of this.
What I mean is not you god no, who i mean is my parent for basically blowing me off to the curb and her IT lady for not allowing me to learn how to fix this myself and shutting me out.
I won't go into all the gory details because at this point it'd just be me tearing open salty wounds.
The parties involved and they know who they are will regret it once I'm on my own feet gone from this god forsaken jail cell. You want to make my blood boil be naive and don't care about me as a person while sitting there on your internet at your office blowing it off.
I promise you this woman should be lucky the worst I did was walk out. I could of packed my bags and left which I eventually will anyway because I hate The Woodlands now more then ever. I want to get to a place with better transportation options, more things to do and especially as far away from this center of hell.
All she had to do was say I'm here to support you. Instead she blew me off and put me in a living torture chamber with no keys,
Anyway,
Onto the stuff that makes me smile in those of you who wished me happy birthday.
Nach- Thank you so much! I really was not expecting you to surprise me like you did.
nievelion- Thank you so much for making my entire weekend so special and one I will never forget ;)
I know I shouldn't be saying this but after this morning I really hope we can become more then just friends ;)
You're such an awesome guy who went beyond what I was expecting. I never expected you to surprise me like you did and even if being boyfriends doesn't work out you'll always be my close friend.
In short, guys like you are the reason why I'm working so hard to break myself out of this situation forever so I can be with happiness.
You rocked my world twice baby and cemented it making me hope we meet sooner rather then later.
I'm starting to do my part, now you have to do yours. You want this to come true you earn it and you prove it :)
Oops did I just say somebody is trying to reel me in? Oh yes I did..
I like you Nie with all my heart. I wish I could say love but that's reserved for face to face ;)
Oh and I got some pictures I will post later of some funny moments I caught by the lake.
Thanks to everybody else for wishing me a Happy Birthday!
And to those who didn't it's ok because you really didn't have to but it was there.
So until next time..
Your Lion Writer,
SWSP
PS:
Yes, I'm still smiling Nie.. You're such a sexy awesome guy!
<3 ;)
Now that I have this back I'm going to get down to what needs to be done and what needs to happen.
And you know what it is.
I too am wary of calling this anything but friendship, for many reasons but mostly because we haven't even been talking long online, let alone not having met IRL. But no matter what, yes I think we will always be good friends and I am glad to be that for you.
Glad I could rock your world, make you happy even for a little while, and give you something to look forward to. Hope to see you around here more, and eventually someday in person.
*warm hugs to his Sexy King*
That's exactly what I mean and you know it too. If you want this to happen you can't sit behind some box wishing it would because my offer is very limited in both of us know if somebody local here in Houston comes knocking I have to in my heart go the route that best suits me to find happiness,
You know all this Nie but I just want to make it very clear here as well. Unlike you I don't have many strings attaching me to this area and I can go anywhere I want but I know I will have to give up my closest companion besides you.. My cat Spinner, I know it will be very hard but those are the things you have to put into perspective if you want happiness to happen.
I like you cannot abandon my best friend who lives in Houston because he did call me and there still is a chance he could be able to at least room with me,
I have to give it a chance because we've been through so much together and if there is a chance to save the friendship that's what I'm going to do.
But again I have to grunt work to get it just like if you want to walk the streets of Houston or San Francisco or whereever it is we can meet to hold hands.
If you want to be my friend or my boyfriend you've got to understand I'm not going to support your butt like a parent because that's not what a relationship is about. I will support you and help you till death do us part but I want you to be able to hold your own as well.
That's what I think about and know when I eventually move out. I've lived with a complete mess most of my adult life so again it would be nice to have a structured living arrangement at least where we can both be us but also be two different people with the same responsibility,
Remember me telling you about my brother getting engaged to his fiancee who ended up booking out on him when they finally got a house together and she had to take those same responsibilities as him? Those are the things you have to remember because there could be fireworks but there also could not be and even then nothing is set in stone.
I've seen what has happened to my brother who sadly was sitting at some titty bar again sending me a text on my birthday while dreaming about a set of boobs he could never have or would be a constant flight risk.
So anyway,
Nothing is etched in stone, I know it, you know it. I'm willing to do my part but are you willing to do yours?
I also know about your situation and I also know you have lots of things to think about if the time does come up where both of us can be together.
Like I told you I want to travel again very soon locally here in Texas I would be more then happy to show you this great state that I love! But again you can't sit behind a box and dream about it because all my real life friends don't hide behind keyboards.
I believe in you and want you to be able to make this happen as much as you do me. I like you a lot as a man from what little time we've spent talking and having fun
Everytime I think I about your name I smile because you've given me back the vigor and the drive to make things like this happen.
I know you'll get everything i mean being the wise lion you are.
I truly was blown away when you surprised me like you did on my birthday. I seriously did want to do exactly what I was feeling inside of my heart and my groin A surprise from somebody I really like a lot especially on a special day is like giving me a wedding ring or a set of roses saying be mine forever Nothing turns me on as hard as a surprise like the one you gave me when you didn't have to.
Even if I cannot be Your Sexy King and you my Protector Prince we'll always be friends and that's what I care the most about. Even if we don't hit it off I owe you a real kiss which I hope in my heart will happen soon.
When we are face to face that's when I know everything we've hoped for will come true.
I may text you later wishing you a good night so thanks again for making my special day one I will never forget babe!