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I needed some help.
18 years ago
http://youtube.com/watch?v=51V1VMkuyx0 this is nice.
I went on meds two days ago. I was told I wouldn't probably feel any affects for a few weeks but I definitely feel jittery and hyped up. I keep pacing around like I'm on speed and I talk faster than I ever have before. I hope these things will lessen soon, it threw me into a panic attack at the mall yesterday. I left before anybody caught on. Thankfully my grandmother's house was just down the road. I drove there and laid down on the couch for 45 minutes to slow down my heartrate.
I withdrew from SCAD friday after I saw my psychiatrist. I was talking to her and after discussing a few things I told her about something odd that happened to me the other day. I felt this weird need to look at old pictures from when I was little. One of the first photos in the shoebox was of me as a baby and I cried uncontrollably for a long time when I saw it. After telling her this I BROKE DOWN AGAIN. I have teared up with some my my psychologists before but I've never outright cried like that.
So we talked a bit. We both came to a conclusion, and now I'm trying something different to hopefully help me in life. I don't know if I'll be online very much. If I am I am, but I may have to look for a job soon.
Wish me luck guys, I love you all.
Zabeth
I went on meds two days ago. I was told I wouldn't probably feel any affects for a few weeks but I definitely feel jittery and hyped up. I keep pacing around like I'm on speed and I talk faster than I ever have before. I hope these things will lessen soon, it threw me into a panic attack at the mall yesterday. I left before anybody caught on. Thankfully my grandmother's house was just down the road. I drove there and laid down on the couch for 45 minutes to slow down my heartrate.
I withdrew from SCAD friday after I saw my psychiatrist. I was talking to her and after discussing a few things I told her about something odd that happened to me the other day. I felt this weird need to look at old pictures from when I was little. One of the first photos in the shoebox was of me as a baby and I cried uncontrollably for a long time when I saw it. After telling her this I BROKE DOWN AGAIN. I have teared up with some my my psychologists before but I've never outright cried like that.
So we talked a bit. We both came to a conclusion, and now I'm trying something different to hopefully help me in life. I don't know if I'll be online very much. If I am I am, but I may have to look for a job soon.
Wish me luck guys, I love you all.
Zabeth
Glad that you're trying new avenues to achieve that inner balance, sad that you're on a bit of a roller coaster ride in the process.
Hopefully things will ease up and help and not have an effect like this : http://pics.livejournal.com/farx/pic/0006q9rx ;)