Hi all,

I would like to take an oppertunity to thank each and every one of you for wishing me a happy birthday. My computer actually lagged from all the people sending me messages all day long. You guys are awesome and it makes me feel really amazing that you guys care about me.

For a good portion of my life, I felt like I was worthless and because of certain things sometimes I feel that way. But on my birthday, I didn't feel that way. The last few days, I haven't felt that way save last night. And I want to thank you for those times.

I also wish to thank you for all your patience. You guys are saints and I don't deserve such kindness. As I stated in journals before, I will either try to refund or get things done as soon as I can. Just with work actually backing up on me I have had a lot to do and little time to do it. But I am still trying guys, I am still trying.

I also wish to thank my fans. You guys give me the strength to keep trying new things and projects. Not only do I have AMV Nightmare to do voice work for, but now I have Ecchi studios, another personal project that will be under wraps for now, but I also might have another role down the line when I get a new professional mic. So things in that regard are really looking up for me, and I have really seriously considered being a professional voice actor. But, we will see how it pans out.

Lastly, I wish to give anyone who has gone through what I have over the past 25 years some wonderful advice.

To anyone that has been made to feel like dirt because no one else has faith, or to anyone that was ever made to feel worthless or nothing because their love made them feel that way, or their parents made them feel like you are just a burden... these bits of advice are for you.

1. Do not take all the negative things that people have to say to heart, no matter who makes them. I have found that in all my years of life even the most intelligent people I know, can be and a lot of the time probably will be wrong about what to do with your life. The best person to decide what goes on in your life, is you.

2. Take what people throw at you and try to analyze it to yourself. Does what they say hold any merit? Then change it if you really want to. If it doesn't? Then scrap book it away and move on. There is no point holding onto the pain anymore when happiness feel so much better.

3. When someone says something like, "The only person that will love you is me, or no one else would put up with you." Look at them and say, "You know what, that is fine with me." Pack your things, walk out the door, and move on. It is a good indicator that this person is mentally abusing you or wishes to abuse you. No person deserves to be treated this way. I know it will be hard, and you can be in denial of the signs because you think the person you love could never harm you... some can... and do.

4. Never be afraid to try to talk to someone about your feelings. Though don't always expect your friends to be that cushion. Though they can help, they are people too and have limits. Try to find someone professionally to help you when you really feel that things are way beyond your control to handle. It is not worth the stress or aggravation you put on yourself. Plus you can choose if you want to continue speaking with a professional or not, there is choice.

5. The best revenge to get on someone that treats you like trash, is to succeed in what you want to do. Nothing bothers someone like that more than your own success. They may still try to make you feel worthless, but just smile and laugh it off. Trying to make you feel worthless is the ultimate admission to their own failure. Pity them, because they need to compensate.

6. Never treat a mistake as a failure. Mistakes are something that everyone makes in life and is the way that we learn. No matter how bad the situation, I bet you can look back and learn something to improve your decisions further down the road of life.

7. Know that you are a beautiful person. No matter what you look like on the outside, the beauty inside is what counts most.

8. No matter what imperfection you have, there is always going to be those people that either don't notice it, or have a fetish for it.

9. Self confidence in anything is the sexiest thing on the planet.

10. If you are still in school and you get bullied, I can tell you from experience that life outside it is going to be shit. But don't give up, because there are things you haven't experienced yet that make the whole thing seem like a small price to pay.

11. Loving someone can be the most challenging marathon hike up a mountain sometimes. Though, the journey is more than worth it.

That is all I can share for now. I finally feel sleepy enough to actually go to sleep now.

I hope that these help someone out one day. And again to all of you, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

I <3 my . I <3 My friends, and I <3 my fans.