No to suicide...so, now what?
14 years ago
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I will say one thing about having myself convinced I'd be dead by 2012, at least then I had some rudimentary idea of what to do with my life (namely "end it"). Now that I've decided to go on living, I'm kinda stuck with an idea of what the Hell to DO with that life...I mean, my childhood dreams of working in comics or as a professional animator are completely shot to fuck and back by the harsh economic realities and evolutions of both industries. Seriously, I think the kindest thing I can say about wasting my life pursuing a woman who claims to have never loved me is that if I hadn't, odds are I'd STILL be up shit creek career-wise.
But...writing and drawing are all I've ever done. I sidelined into computers to support that cheap mockery of a marriage and have palsied hands and out-of-date computer skills to show for it. My ex is trying to convince me to go back to college, but for what? These days, college degrees are as likely to PREVENT you from getting jobs as HELP you, and it's not like a friggin' English major is worth jack shit these days.
So, just to keep from talking myself back INTO suicide, does anyone have any ideas what a gimpy 37-year-old waste of space can do to make a future for himself?
But...writing and drawing are all I've ever done. I sidelined into computers to support that cheap mockery of a marriage and have palsied hands and out-of-date computer skills to show for it. My ex is trying to convince me to go back to college, but for what? These days, college degrees are as likely to PREVENT you from getting jobs as HELP you, and it's not like a friggin' English major is worth jack shit these days.
So, just to keep from talking myself back INTO suicide, does anyone have any ideas what a gimpy 37-year-old waste of space can do to make a future for himself?
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I'm not trying to be a downer but maybe a change in scenery would help you in the long run.
check the papers for what jobs they ARE hiring for and see what the ones you might be able to do take for education. ALTERNATIVE: become Hertzfeldt.
And if anything, don't go to college- WORK for the college.
That said, yeah, it's scary as hell out there lately. Many a guy and gal who did everything right in life, got multiple degrees, and had successful careers are in pretty much the same place you are right now and wondering what the hell they are gonna do. It doesn't help that anyone over 45 is dead to employers for low end jobs either, right at a time when more people work past retirement age than ever before.
But let's look at the bright side - you could have done all those right things, and it might not have made any difference with things as they are lately. Sucks for those people who did do all the right things and had early success and are now fucked, but it's kind of an opportunity for you, who didn't. You can start out at the same point without thinking about lost time so much. The playing field is suddenly equalized.
Quit with all the ex this and ex that stuff though. You said yourself it was a waste of time. So pursuing it any further is just a sign of weakness, plain and simple. The acceptance or rejection towards you of this one person in the whole wide world never reflected on your manhood or whatever until you started telling yourself it did anyway. Time to move on.
It's not too late to navigate the computer stuff into a career. The generation coming up may be able to text each other at the speed of thought, but many of them have never seen a command line before and don't really understand what is happening when they move files around etc. on a computer. You understand the underlying concepts, and that can make a difference in certain fields. Just keep an open mind and make yourself useful wherever you go.
Hell, in some places you can ask the help desk for a cat5 cable, and they will ask what you are talking about. Some of them don't know what a RAR file is either. But they got experience working at certain places and just did good work and developed a resume. It's not about being super knowledgeable all the time.
And like OrinJ said, lots of employers love those certifications. A little too much if you ask me, but they don't understand technical stuff themselves, so the certs make them feel safe about hiring somebody. It's a little silly, but it's true.
Most colleges let you have up to 2 or 3 classes a semester for free if you work for them (check with the college).