Was told to try this when it’s time to wind down for bed, and building good habits is something I really need to get started on.

Ten things I’m grateful for today:
-That Cory wasn’t hurt in that accident.
-That my sugar gliders are healthy, even though we aren’t totally BFFs yet. We’ll get there.
-That I have a roof over my head, even if I’m in debt like everybody else.
-That Redthread is still in my head and wanting to come out. That people actually seem to want to read it.
-Discovering a new story that interested me. It’s more fulfilling than I remember. I want to find a few new things and really discover some sort of fandom again–I think it’s when I was happiest in the past.
-Just having Cory around, really. I know the two of us are stressed right now, but if he wasn’t there, I don’t know what I’d do. That should have been number one, but I’m going off the top of my head, here.
-That people always want to help, no matter how horrible I feel like I can be sometimes. It reminds me that I’m probably not so horrible, after all.
-That Maher still finds time to talk to me and try to help me with my problems, even though he’s usually ankle-deep in dying patients (or at least patients that swear up and down that they’re dying). Makes me never want to say “I’m too busy” ever again.
-That my little sister and I get along so well, even if we weren’t raised in the same house. I’m very proud of her for a lot of reasons.
-That people still want just a minute of my time every day, even though I’m rarely available because I’m too busy wallowing in my messy, disorganized existence. It means there’s something in me that must seem worthwhile, and I have to remember that.

One thing I learned today:
That there’s actually a board that deals with insurance companies that don’t pay on policies they are supposed to pay for. I didn’t know that. Even though our system is really messed, it’s good to know that there’s actually, you know, people out there that are prepared to handle that when you can’t.

One nice thing I did for someone else:
This is hard, and it shouldn’t be. I ran downstairs and got Gatorade for Cory before bed. I just feel bad lately, being such a bump on a log. He’s been down, so I keep trying to offer to run and get things or do things for him when I can. It’s not much, but hopefully it’s something.

One nice thing someone did for me today:
Warren offered help from a lawyer friend for the car situation. He had me email her all the info about the claim and the company we're dealing with. That was really nice. People don’t have to reach out and help you, but when they do, it makes you want to do something nice for someone else. That’s my goal for tomorrow.

You know, that was pretty relaxing, actually. Doesn’t seem like too difficult a habit to keep up. I think I’ll do this again tomorrow. <3

-HD