I'm tired of it all.

You all can run around like the happy go lucky people you are but, I refuse to live my life in a lie anymore. The truth is I'm depressed 24/7. No matter what I do I come back to a this foul mood. It never makes any difference to me. Life fucking blows its how the world fucking goes. We live to suffer and even in death we suffer long drawn out deaths.

Love? I've sen all sorts. Mostly faked acted out emotions that no one really cares for. I want to hate every single woman on the face of the earth. You know why? I guess there's some fundamental flaw that makes me unlikeable by the opposite sex unless in a relationship. So my question is what the hell is it? Why am i like this? Simple, People hate different people. Now when i say different i don't mean strange. I mean people who have some sort of disability or another! Mine is autism, thus making me less desirable.

Ties in with the first two! Figure it out! For those who can't I'm sick and tired of playing these games we have developed in our life! So now very calmly I declare I have no desire to try any me I forfeit. I've been too high and fell so hard that nothing not even the lord almighty himself coming down and telling me I'm important is going to change that. so I'm a doormat walk over me, that's what I'm for.