Once again, I have a couple of things that I need to get off my chest, for anyone who cares to listen. Because there is certain things in life that is -really- starting to tick me off at this point. Yes, it is things that I can only do very little about. But I still want to speak my mind about it and release those frustrations that are building up inside me. As most people oughta know by now, I am a transgendered fag and gay to the core. Unlike many homosexuals, I am deeply faschinated by females, and insist on treating them like a gentleman. Unless they are being mean to me, of course. That has deffinetly happened before in the past.

Generally, I approach ladies with respect, and treat them with great care. The problem is, I expect that everyone else does the same, and that leaves me disappointed one time after the other. I tend to keep a sharp eye on how straight guys attempt to win a womans love, and I also observe how they run their relationships. And to be honest, I am not very pleased with what I see. First of all, I've noticed that most men try to gain the womens attention by flexing their muscles and pretend to be strong. Sometimes, they even get into fistfights to impress the ladies watching. It's absolutely ridicolous and painfully awkward to watch. This is where I ask, where did all the romance go? Why is it so rare to see a guy who would attempt to win a womans heart with a bouquet of flower, romantic compliments that come directly from the heart or maybe a poem heavily packed with deep emotions? If you want to be worthy of holding a womans heart in your hands, then you must earn the right to do so by winning her trust so she will let you touch it. Make it clear to her that putting her heart in your hands is a safe choice. And yes, I know there are ladies that dig this whole "showing off" thing. But I also know a LOT of women who doesn't.

Despite of their awkward ways of searching for a mate, the young men does occationally find women that are willing to start a relationship with them. And there comes the second part of my worry regarding this subject. Because I have met alot of women who are painfully unhappy in their relationships, and it often leads to shattered hearts and the lovers breaking up. Why? Well, one problem is that most men don't seem to have realized what a relationship is all about. They see their mate as a trophy to show off and they keep their minds focused on sex. On top of that, they harvest the benefits of having a mate, since having that improves your status in most social groups. But when you hear a guy brag about his relationship, do you hear him tell stories about how happy he made his girlfriend by taking her out on a fancy restaurant or spending his money on a fancy ring for her? Nope. All he'll tell you is what a good fuck she was last night. Pathetically sad.

People just don't get it. Their relationships keep crashing, every girl they find ends up leaving them, and they still don't get the point. A relationship is not about status, popularity or sexual pleasure. It's a beautifull bond between two hearts that desires to be together, hopefully for an eternity. If you earn the heart of a woman who desires to share her life with you, then you should consider yourself blessed, and take very good care of her. I think there are many ladies out there who are desperately searching for mates that are willing to devote their hearts and ultimate love to them only, so they can feel appreciated and treasured. A relationship is like a garden of flowers. If you don't keep the garden supplied with water, all the beautifull blossoms that have sprouted in it will wither away and die. All that you together have planted and attempted to grow will be lost. If you want to keep the woman in your life, get over your masculine arrogancy, and realize that there's no shame in being soft and sensitive. Open up and show her a heart that she can touch.

At the very bottom of this subject, we have the part that truly leaves me behind with tears in my eyes. And that is when men sink so low, that they don't give a rats ass about a womans feelings at all. Men that hardly see women as people, and consider them toys for sexual stimulation. I've heard that they drag a woman into a relationship and demand sex, and if she's not up for it at that time, then she'll be slapped across her face. If any of you guys reading this journal ever would raise a fist against a girl, then you might as well marry your mother. Because she'll be the only woman that would ever even consider loving you! But there are still one group of people that are even worse... and that is the ones who'd grab a woman and have sex with her against her will. Yes, I am talking about rape here. If anyone reading this journal would consider raping a girl, then you'd better pray that I don't find you. Because I won't let go before every 206 bones in your body is broken and grinded into dust! Rape is something that brings out my rage instantly. And if I ever witnessed something like that happening in a dark alley, I'd go completely insane. They have NO idea how much damage they cause on a woman by doing so, and those are damages that the woman will have to live with for the rest of her life. Permanently scarred, just because one guy couldn't keep his fucking dick in his pants...

*Sighs* Thats all I have to say. And before anyone point it out, YES, women can be bad people too. But with this journal, I am keeping my focus on those many ladies that are not, who are just secretly dreaming of finding a way into the embrace of a loving boyfriend. A boyfriend who will treat them as something special and sacred...