After almost a month, I thought my feelings would start to settle down and fade... Except that they're doing the opposite. They're actually maturing. Growing. And I'm not sure what to do here...

I know it's more or less one-sided, but it's not like I can simply just fall out of love. My feelings should be calming down, and I should be able to shake off the butterflies. But I can't.

I know I'm not supposed to feel this way... I'm married. I shouldn't be in love with another woman. Especially one who's already mated...

All I know is that I can't live without my wife, but I'm also falling deeper into love with someone else. And even though I got to spend some good time with her last weekend, I miss her already.

I just don't know how or why this is all happening....

I might add more later, but I've got to get to class now.