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>8( 3/3 I swear Ill call this science one day
14 years ago
maybe sometime some freak like me gets intrigued and Ill be glad to have helped.....anonymously and without feedback (><) so here Ill tie it up and go to the next thing. It took me like two weeks, started with a note, ended with my second worst sleep deprivation ever which also was nicer than most sleep ins I had... and as usual, from this side of the river, doesnt even look so cruel anymore. although theres an indeed harsh truth behind it.
I thought the problem was how clinical the system "man" has to become so you master a person. or persons. or doing it all the time. and quickly. and without the care that eats up your time. or judgement. to see the methods and phenomena is easy with a large database of art, there is no security measure of any kind, no copyrights, no encoding, no long waits with the car or figuring out why the contents of this or that book are ordered so stupidly because some scientist thought hed make more money that way. just nature plain to see. just needs a precise knowledge of what youve actually done and seen, and some metaphors on top. and narcissism. and.. no, I think thats pretty much the crux.
I was just bitching because I couldnt let go of my shining armor attitude, because metaphysics are anything to me, I trusted them with everything I was (ugh I want that "old story" to stop raining down on my head xDDD). not cynical, but god knows Im excited in the wrong way << aw man. I feel like when I saw alien and those eggs prove to me that I was OBLIVIOUS of what neatness actually is (not) and what it (not) means. I suddenly saw, and there was no way back. I grew up in a world that actually convinced me we wouldnt live in stone age anymore. I.. this.. (bla). aw well, if strategy is so strongholdish I can "shut the fuck up" as well. What I still dont get is why honor was so important earlier, when pride is such a weakness. I still like honor. that is the first philosophical question, that I dont want to have answered from the spot, and it feels.. not bad. I can wait. Itll come when the time is right. o.o oh wait I just got the answer xD
about shutting up tho xD
I can play the game, but Ill never accept inhumanity. make a scream match with me and I make you cry, and hug you afterwards to make it all better. for real. double suprise if you will. chances are Ill reduce the rumors too. If it doesnt make you (and its prolly gonna..), youll be so hateful that we have to make out with punching gloves. which Id do from the spot since I dig true feelings way to much for everybodies good (or is it~). and in case you actually throw me over, and who knows, maybe you belong to the guys who make it easily, Ill lie there, enjoy my moment of blank, swallow that Im beatn, and do you know what Ima gonna do then? Ill laugh heartily. so heartily, that I just did the freudian and accidentally wrote love instead of laugh. Ill feel a bit quasy on the inside too, because I obviously have the evil inside me where I cant reach, but thats just enough to keep my gears turning strong- and Ill feel very, very warm.
who of the two wolves inside you will take control? the one you nourish! and a few other things xD
Im even noticably less horrorfied-to-whatever-is-the-most-dear-to-you of getting children now.
so the next years include holding eyes open for divinity and zero-point for exp.
I thought the problem was how clinical the system "man" has to become so you master a person. or persons. or doing it all the time. and quickly. and without the care that eats up your time. or judgement. to see the methods and phenomena is easy with a large database of art, there is no security measure of any kind, no copyrights, no encoding, no long waits with the car or figuring out why the contents of this or that book are ordered so stupidly because some scientist thought hed make more money that way. just nature plain to see. just needs a precise knowledge of what youve actually done and seen, and some metaphors on top. and narcissism. and.. no, I think thats pretty much the crux.
I was just bitching because I couldnt let go of my shining armor attitude, because metaphysics are anything to me, I trusted them with everything I was (ugh I want that "old story" to stop raining down on my head xDDD). not cynical, but god knows Im excited in the wrong way << aw man. I feel like when I saw alien and those eggs prove to me that I was OBLIVIOUS of what neatness actually is (not) and what it (not) means. I suddenly saw, and there was no way back. I grew up in a world that actually convinced me we wouldnt live in stone age anymore. I.. this.. (bla). aw well, if strategy is so strongholdish I can "shut the fuck up" as well. What I still dont get is why honor was so important earlier, when pride is such a weakness. I still like honor. that is the first philosophical question, that I dont want to have answered from the spot, and it feels.. not bad. I can wait. Itll come when the time is right. o.o oh wait I just got the answer xD
about shutting up tho xD
I can play the game, but Ill never accept inhumanity. make a scream match with me and I make you cry, and hug you afterwards to make it all better. for real. double suprise if you will. chances are Ill reduce the rumors too. If it doesnt make you (and its prolly gonna..), youll be so hateful that we have to make out with punching gloves. which Id do from the spot since I dig true feelings way to much for everybodies good (or is it~). and in case you actually throw me over, and who knows, maybe you belong to the guys who make it easily, Ill lie there, enjoy my moment of blank, swallow that Im beatn, and do you know what Ima gonna do then? Ill laugh heartily. so heartily, that I just did the freudian and accidentally wrote love instead of laugh. Ill feel a bit quasy on the inside too, because I obviously have the evil inside me where I cant reach, but thats just enough to keep my gears turning strong- and Ill feel very, very warm.
who of the two wolves inside you will take control? the one you nourish! and a few other things xD
Im even noticably less horrorfied-to-whatever-is-the-most-dear-to-you of getting children now.
so the next years include holding eyes open for divinity and zero-point for exp.
