hi all.

well, what do i start with? i been with my mate  shuggy-tiger for almost 2 months now and my feelings were all over the place at first, but since he went on holiday i started to miss him more than i could have imagined. when he came back i was over joyed with love for him, but then my feelings kept going up and down again. i absolutely adore him in general but when it comes to sexual side of things my mind plays tricks on me and i cant figure out what i'm comfortable with and what i'm not comfortable with. however, my feeling for him are just so high, but the sexual side of things scares me a little. anyway, last night i tried somthing new with him and the look on his face scared me, it looked like a 'i got her right where i want her' look on his face. but the thing is, i'm such an insecure person and cant tell when someone cares about me or not, though he has shown me so much care and affection. but because of my stupidity i feel i'm losing him, as he put a status on facebook saying 'why do i feel like bursting out crying and giving my heart to someone else', and that really hit a nerve on me, i dont know wether he ment it or wether its because he thinks i dont want him, but i do, but how can i trust him now that he said that? can anyone give me advice as i'm sat here crying not knowing what he's feeling about me right now? :'(