nooooooo meh brudder....him really gone....moved in with fiance? him gone?........noooo him be back? <:3 him wont b gone long? yeah! him wont b gone long..........ugh, screw the bunnie act this is a sensitive time for me. im sad! but im trying not to b because i know he wouldnt want me to b sad..

But at the same time, i know ts going to b difficult for me to cope without my brother being around...like...coming home from school and seeing him in his room drawing or laughing with his friends on live messenger. this may sound weird, but he kinda helped me get to sleep with his laughter and his music and all.. idk...

welll i cant say i didnt expect this because they were talking about moving in together for like ever now but y so soon?? nooooo!!! bring him back!!! :c b4 he left i gave him huggies but i didnt cry because i had company over but whn he left i kinda broke down. crying makes me feel better i guess. i mean...its not likes hes gone forever or anything?...

but it kant help but remind me a very small percentage i would feel if he were to move to a different state,......im not even going to think about worse. but i can truly say u dont know what u have until its gone like....i feel like ive failed at my duties as a liddo sister because i grew older, ive started having friends,and bf's and...phone and..i started hanging with him a lot less and doing the things together that we used to do..we drew together ALL the time....we played video games until 5 am...

we stayed up and talked untill we both fell asleep...and....*sniffle* i just feel like i shouldve set a personal goal with myself to do these things like we used to do before he left..and i DIDNT!!! i dont think ill be givin the opertunity to fix it! horrible sister....i hope he can forgive me. ..bunnie....signing out..<;c