My life is about to take a potentially very pleasant change.
My schedule is undergoing a metamorphosis shortly after the 11th.
I was accepted into the newly opening Dell Chat Support program at good old E-telecare.
this tells me several things:
Even through I am not a perfect employee, my scores and attendance met or exceeded the expected measure. I'm doing the job well enough to be moved to a new program.
It's vindicating after perfoming the not always pleasant task of providing technical support to the upper end systems buyers.

Side note:
Just because it's marketed as a gaming system does not mean that only serious gamers will buy it. I cannot count how many calls I get from people who can barely even manage e-mail and surfing the web!

On the other hand, the few actual gamers I helped were the quickest to handle!
Example:
User: I ran the diags and it gave me this error.
Me: Ok, Your video card's dead, you want to put the new one in yourself or send a tech?
User: I can do it myself.
Me: Ok, What's the address?

I love it when the caller does half the work for you!

Back to work....
I had several realizations once I got home from work and had time to ponder:
1. The schedule began at 6 am and ended at 2 pm.
2. 2 pm... The stores and businesses are still all open.
3. It's just as good as a job that starts at 3, because I still have time to run errands.
4. Even better, free evenings! I can go out with people and do things, even on holidays! I can have a life!

So my life is shifting about 180 degrees.
It's peculiar.
I worked at circle k it was overnights.
Then I found E-telecare and enjoyed early afternoons to midnights.
Now I'm moving to early mornings thru early afternoons.

I can actually sleep at nights, and still do fun things in the evenings!

So, in summary, Work is goooood :D

As for the rest of my life, the blank pages are starting to fill in, even if ponderously slowly, (it seems that way) and I am learning newer and better ways to both manage myself, but also of determining the root of my problems, and how to balance them.

Money has stopped being a concern, because it always appears when it is needed, it took us being able to weather a sizable bill that popped up unexpectedly to finally provide the proof I needed.

The transportation issue will be one of my targets when this new world opens up to me. I will be able to fix my car, The Crimson Buick (Arr!) and make her a reliable and trustworthy ride. I have the tools and the initiative. And the best things about her will no longer only be that she's paid for.

I need a few more things and I can branch the metalworking business into making sculpted jewelery from silver. This means an influx of two things, money and women, into my life. I could definitely stand to have more of both.

I have come to another realization that I was doing something really dumb.
I was being mad at myself for being mad at myself... a really annoying endless loop in my psyche, and I can start taking action to mend it.

I also realized that I believe in myself only about 70% of the time. That I didn't approve of myself almost a third of the time was shocking. I considered what I believed in absolutely 100% of the time, and my first thought was, "That Cedric (my main online personna) Is the coolest guy to ever exist." It struck me funny. I had already realized this before, but things must have gotten in the way.

The truth is: In order to fully realize myself and be 'me' I had to become Cedric. I've been leaning in the right directions to start the metaporphisis.

Basically, I feel like I'm in a very high point in my life and will shortly be allowing myself to look for new people to share my self created fortune with.

I already know momentum builds, so I think I'm really going to enjoy this ride.

If you're still reading, thank you.

That's what's goin on in this Horse's World.
I think I'll start using that for the names of my blogs...

Gary / Ced