Sorry for not posting new screened work and such, but let me break down what has happened to me recently, so you understand fully, well, my friend shall, anywho.

I have been dealing with a loss, a deep loss of my real family, leaving my mother to drink herself drunk everyday with her girlfriend, my sister who is sixteen giving me attitude and being drunk half the time too, so I escaped away from it all and moved in with a friend I've trusted for a while, we live in a good bond of sharing bills and hanging out, playing games alot and generally chilling as best buds do. I have my internet working, my PC Upgraded [Though, if anyone can find me a 754 pin, 3400+sempron chip for sale cheap, I'd be most grateful]

So generally I am happy... apart from the fact, my 21st birthday is on the 21st of december [Next month] and I only have my grandmother to call... which makes me kind of sad having a father thats an asshole, a mother thats a drunk dike and a sister whose becomming a state that I cannot help keep under control with offers of free music CD's and trips out alone.

If you find me down and/or upset, I apologise, I have plenty RL friends to give me a great birthday bash and general support... but, what about when its over? I'm a little messed up on this, so apologies for the 'emo' journal. The thing I'm asking at the end of this is simple.. Can I forgive my sister, mother, father and give them one more chance before I hit 21... or do I roll on strong and leave them behind, since I have tried for FIVE years to do right... and always come up wrong.Yes... I'm a mess in the head [sigh]

Vincent Outlaw~