hi fuzzy's.

so its been a while since my last journal. a bit has happened since then. i split with my bf coz my mind started to play up, getting paranoid and dont know why but i'm still suffering, wondering why my mind thinks it. i had a panic attack last friday evening, i tried self harm on sunday and had 2 angry outbursts thumping the wall and on monday i had another angry outburst in front of my neice, dont worry i didnt hit her, i hit the wall, i would never do that to a child. but yeah i'm still a bit unsteady on and off, having tremours and dizziness. i went to see a nurse and she wouldnt give me any medication for it coz its too early to do that and to go back if i'm not feeling any better next week.

ANY WHO, i have an interview for a work placement at waitrose for a shelf filling and stock control position which i am gonna try my best to do,and if i get employed at the end of it then that means i may finally be able to get a new fursuit, hopefully a proper partial including feet paws this time and of much better longer lasting quality!

last but not least, my birthday is coming up on friday 27th may. am i excited? well, not as much as i want to be because i dont feel i deserve anything at all. but i hope to go bowling on the evening if i can get anyone to come with me. i did put a status about it on facebook but no one replied, so i may end up doing sweet F A. but i am gonna try again.