You noticed it too?

It was mostly muttering except at some points. HE isn't what's upsetting me it's the situation. I don't like confrentation and it seems to be around friends I have to accept it. Meh I'll figure it out.

Well the transition comment was far from the only one. As for regretting transitioning, meh Wanted t since I was coherant so I can't imagine regretting it.

Disadvantage of being visually impaired is incredible hearing. I heard him say a TON of things.

I noticed that. I certainly hope you are feeling better. Know there is no hostility or tension from my end.

Stellar advice! I'll take that into strong consideration. That's how I've handled it thus far just casual conversation and telling the person that they are acting childish and disrupting a group event. Now I just need the outlet, I tend to seethe for a while. That's why I'm hoping reading tons of manga will fix it.

I'm not a fan of that feeling either, juz don't pay any attention to him

That's what I've been doing thus far.

I know how you feel, I was bullied my entire childhood and teenage life as well. that feeling is enough to make someone vomit.. and if I had the power to I would without actually being a bully force every bully on the planet to feel that sickining gut renching emotion ten thousand fold of what the people that were bullied felt it.

Yeah it's a terrible feeling. Just pure seething rage so much that it makes your stomach churn. I used to just resort to violence to fix bullies but I just can't stand the idea anymore I'd sooner take a hammer to the foot than fight someone.

I learned to deal with them by breaking them down phycologicly I would find out what they fear and exploit that.
now I just ignore them and help those who are being bullied.

I do the same thing but I don't want to escalate. I just don't want any hand in it at all. I am doing the ignoring thing as it's really the only thing I can do but it's irritating when you want to spend time with your friends and you have to deal with that nonsense.

true that.

Always remember, that your better them him in every way
don't let him ruin your day, *hugs*

Well... people are going to be like that. D:
and well... as much as you dislike that feeling... it is one. I'm sure you can handle it. c:

I think the Buddhist teachings that i'm learning say it better.. "If you have nothing nice to say, then don't say anything" Its better to remain mute and in control of your actions and body, than flail out of control and mention things that you will later regret saying. You're a strong person, and I know that you can bite your tounge when you need to :) There's an old adage that I live by, esp in this area of my country... "When there's nothing to be said, there's always some idiot that will say it." You met him lastnight XD

*superhuggles you* be safe and be good hun, you know where I am if you need anything xxxx love you always

Thank you. Luckily the urge to say terrible things to him doesn't exist. I simply don't like conflict I know everything you say is true so I don't bother lashing out at him, nevertheless having to deal with such things during group events is a major pain. I would normally turn tail and run but the group of people have been very kind to me and even though they aren't defending me I think it may be worthwhile to stick it out for them. In the end one of us will give in to the other... *sigh* I really hate conflict...

alot of people are saying to ignore, thou that may be the right choice, althou if i were walking with u and i heard someone talk shitt about u i would undoubtly have picked a fight, the anger and adrenalin is like fire in my blood, i would have spent a night in jail for 3rd degree assault, but i would do it for the ones i care for.. im sorry i wasnt there for u Yuma, i hope u can get through this *hugz*

*taildroops* A lot of the time, people have a hard time dealing with things they don't understand. Often they aren't trying to be malicious or nasty but they can't help it because of how their thought process works. I'd not let is get you so worked up. I can't pretend to understand and know what it is like to be you so offering advise isn't really my best skill right now... Find ways to not let it affect your life. I'd love to speak with you in person about it. *hugs*

Oh I'm not so much worked up about what the person said they said lots of other mean things. I'm not personally offended, I mean bullying is by far something I am used to. Don't you worry your cute fluffy little head *scritches* I just have to learn to relax and calm myself quicker it's always been my weakest suit I can control my outward actions but ugh adrenaline I guess I have alot of it and it's dreadful. However I am feeling substantially better. I'd love to chat though, Dog's are great to chat with ^_^

*waggwaggwagg* *Nuzzles your paw*

*waggwaggwagg* *Nuzzles your paw*

random question, what ever happened to your plan for exotic books

Hahaha. I'm still planing on writing. Life has been too hectic I have barely been at home. It's still in the works.

Oh k, you should try to grow with it tho, or something like take requests or even commissions you know

I doubt anyone would commission me for a story. If someone wanted one I would gladly provide however I seriously doubt it will happen.

dont put your self out like that people do pay if the writing is good, and requests good be for friends

I agree with RedSox here, don't underestimate yourself and your talents.

aww *hug* i wish i could help you

Awww hun, I'm sorry. *cuddles* Now tell mama and papa who it is so we can make him regret life in the most terrifyingly, destructive, over the top, maniacle, horrifying, sadistic way possible.

Oh and also *gives cookies to everyone here*

Obviously I agree with Slayne. We aren't tame people, we don't like people hurting our friends and family.

You're both so sweet. Thank you and the fact you would stand up for me means an undescribable amount to me. I love you both so much. Thankfully it's all been handled and the person in question apolagized

My sweet and beautiful doll *sighs* It pains me to hear about such things especially from a member of our group. I would expect better, but I guess this time it is just too much to ask. I am always proud of your method to your madness as you put it. Handling things with the grace and sophistication of a true woman, rising above such childish and snarky comments. It makes me beam with pride. I love you so much.

To hear you describe it like that makes me feel wonderful and tear up. Thank you so much my love.

*smiles softly* I only speak the truth my love. *kisses your tears* You are so very welcome

Well try not to get yourself get bogged down, it's not helping yourself any.

You are certainly right.

Depression is counter productive, sitting there feeling sorry for yourself doesn't help you or anyone.

I wasn't feeling sorry for myself I was just upset. Either way like I said in the journal it just took a bit

Being upset can easily lead to feeling sorry for yourself though...

*hugs*
Don't let anything get you down Yuma! You are so nice and pretty. Things will be okay. You can always message me if you ever need someone to talk to.

You're so sweet thank you so much and you're pretty too! *hugs tight*

Countless years of evolution have hard-wired this fight-or-flight response into humans and animals alike.
It harkens back to a time when most conflicts were truly a life or death matter.
..so..yeah, what everyone else said .. just try not to let it make you physically ill when you have to repress these feelings..
You are doing the right thing by taking the high road *hugs*

Thanks Tadg, I wish my survival instincts weren't so strong they make daily life alot more difficult. I dunno though every time I get that surge of adrenaline I feel really ill afterwords. I really have no trouble at all repressing anger it's really easy but it makes me sick to my stomach, I have a really weak stomach :/ Runs in my family.

i think ya should just ignore peoplelke that yuma sweety ovisoly this person loves upsetting others and what good will coe of it a good kick up the but that's what

i will let ya in a little bit of my own past witch i keep quite and i hope this wont offend ya asi did once use to be really nasty about this an i feel sick and hate myself everytime i talk about this

i once use to hate transgender people like yaself and thought they where just freaks who where fucked up in the head and always use to terribly bully people who ever talked or mentined it untill one day i totrtured a someone like ya self so badly that they tried to kill them self

i now learnt just how sick and horrid of a person i was and i need to change my ways so it took an exetremly long time of aplogiseing and changeing my ways but i am nkow good friends with this person who has now had the full change buti still feel bad about how i acted on these matters

just let it be know i do consider ya a friend and a very kind and loveing person who is in touch with ya feelings but dont let this person get to ya as yare strong

and i hope ya dont think ill of me for how i use to act in my past

I certainly don't think ill of you. In fact it's interesting hearing your side of it and it gives me hope that people can change. I don't judge you for who you were it's who you are that matters. We all make mistakes and it's a learning experience. I'm glad you think so kindly of me I appreciate it. Also the bullying situation ended well I got an appolagy and it's all resolved. I'm very fortunate! ^_^

Do not let him get to you. Remember that bullies do this for three reasons. First is attention, second is reaction, and thirdly to cover up their own problems. Do not pay it any thought, their words mean nothing. Do not let it upset you, remember it is a cry for help often from someone unwilling to seek or take it. Smile, because it is harder to stay mad when you are smiling also because it upsets the bully.

They want you upset and when you simply smile back and ignore them they feel threatened and beaten because they could not get a reaction. This may not happen immediately but it will over time, especially if you continuously shrug it off. I remember the day the biggest bully in my school stopped picking on me simply because I treated him well and stood up for him and his girlfriend despite all the times he had tripped and taunted and teased me.

Just remember to stay calm and in control, even if you don't want to fight realize they may be nothing you can do about it in some cases boy or girl it matters not. Don't go picking fights but don't hesitate or regret standing up for and defending yourself if it comes down to it. Also stay near friends and other people.

I hope this helps *hugs* (Also do note the idea that some people tease and make fun of those they have a crush on and they can't communicate it)