No matter what i do i can never please my family... then it

Cant express how much it angers... saddens me to teh extent i cant speak, mute...

And i feelliek a total idiot for saying those things to a special person..
I just wish to tell him how much i love him not how much pain i'm in.. i wish i could enjoy every second i see them instead of showing unspoken words...

I'm soft yeah.... things get to me. Just i wish that once in my family that i can have some sympathy for the pain i'm having... physically... mentally ... If i'm sick i just want to be supported not yelled at that I'm not doing anything... or doing everything wrong.. i just want my mom... my dad to say i hope you get better... not yell at me how i'm fucking up my life by feeling sick... the things i didnt complete.. the things i haven't done or missed rubbed in my face every time till i break down in tears and cant do anything but cry...

I just want atleast that special person to be here for me and tell me it will be alright.. say i hope you feel better and hope that my knee heals...