Who's gonna show they care anyways?...
Not like any of my old friends on here care either.

I don't usually vent in my FA journals but I just feel like I really need to.

My life has been soo stressful, idk how I haven't broken down yet. Everything that's been happening lately is horrible and idk what I did to have karma strike me soo badly.

I miss my love  .greed. and all I wanna do is be with him. I just had to go and ruin my chances at being able to move in with him soon! All because of stupid shit I pulled getting angry because I miss him soo dearly and now because of the wreckless shit that happened on the 15th I have to be away from him even longer! If I was just able to control my anger none of this shit would've ever happened.

I'm finally graduated and was soo close to getting away from here but now I gotta spend my Summer here all because of stupid court shit. Why does it take soo long just to resolve a misdemeanor?! IT'S A FUCKIN LOITERING CHARGE!! I wish I didn't have to wait until the 24th of June to go to court... What ever happened to that speedy and fair trial shit?? I gotta go through all of this shit because of loitering?! Fuck this state and it's justice system...

Plus the only thing I feel like I have that keeps me sane through all this is music, furaffinity, and msn messanger... though that's not much at all because I don't talk to anybody and when I try to talk to people it's just hopeless. I talk to like... 3 people? Oh maybe the reason no one talks to me much anymore is because I stopped doing those immature lil sex role plays because I have a mate now. I don't even need those fuckin sick ass perverts anyway. I just didn't realize how much of em I had on my IM list! Why's it soo hard to make friends on here? Am I that bad of a person? Does no body understand my mind set at all? I seriously feel like an out cast, even on a furry website. Wow that's sad...

All I wanna do is get all this shit over with and move away from Cape Coral. I just wanna move to Orlando or Jacksonville (oh wait! I forgot! Everyone in both those places despise me!) go to a community college and get my associates degree then go to a hair school to become a hair stylist while I live with my lover. Like, I got a plan and plan on doing good. Why is karma fuckin me over? What a bitch.

Lol I bet no one is even gonna read this anyway. Sorry just needed to vent!