I don't know who's going to end up reading this, but I feel it's better to ask it to strangers, so I don't raise any concern over a relatively harmless matter. But...

Whoever you are, do you ever feel like you have everything going for you, but also nothing at the same time? Like there are two sides of you, one who's doing well and one who isn't, and they both exist at the same time and in the same place? And that perhaps, one of them is real and one is fake... but you can't tell which, and you'd be okay whichever it was, if only you could ever know?

I don't mean multiple personalities, just... some kind of duality outside of your control. Anyone who can say yes to this, how do you deal with these feeling?

Just checking in.