A friend of mine, not to long ago, when we were hanging out had told me while we were discussing money, and some of the problems we had. That one of his issues was "When I want to eat, I kinda expect someone else to make it for me" Now he's not a big guy or anything, it's just the grab n go lifestyle the house he lives in has. They really don't go out of grocery trips to keep the house stocked up with relatively easy to make meals, and once in a while they'll make something special that's home made. Outside of that, they go out to eat...all the time.

That costs money. Surprisingly, a lot of money.

I've kinda relized over the last few weeks I've been devloping that same habit. Not quite the same extreme, but it's getting there, alarmingly fast. I'm seeing my thought process turn into ."huh, what do I have a taste for today, what do I want to go out and grab." And then I relizeing early to mid week before I get paied, that extra money I wanted to save up...got eaten. Literally. Now I am always saving money from each paycheck I get, 30% is always directly deposited into my savings account where I can't get to it, but I still need to be getting ahead each week and with how I've been eatting, thats becoming very hard.

Now something I almost forgot to mention. I do still live at home, and seeing as we are so low income, we do get a link card for food. We normally go out on a single large monthly shopping trip to stock up on a few particular things (Won't get into details, that's a whole other can of worms) Either way, we also do little trips here or there to pick up what we run out of , milk and the like. I know we do have food in the house, I suppose I'm just dumb for going out so much.

I've been really frustrated with myself and really kinda want to cut up my debit card to force myself to eat at home. Even though I know I need said card for other things like gas, etc. I sometimes hate this fast paced, quick food lifestyle we have developed.