go you!!!!

i need to learn to do this

Standing up for yourself is scary, but you can do it. Sometimes it just takes a push.

thanks...thats so true

No problem bro. Just keep it real.

Ah family. My advice is find a job, even one that isn't the best and don't feel bad about mentioning that you came up to because your grandfather. Socialize. Find groups nearby that interest you, that takes you away from family and can lead to meeting people to hang out with. It might be hard to face what's happening with your grandfather, but you'll be happy later that you did and spent the time with him. Stay strong.

Family is a mess and a half at all times. I love my grandfather, and I just hope that my presence and my care will make him happy, regardless of his situation. That's about all I can hope for other than a miracle cure for getting old, lol.

This journal is more about my stepdad though. Confronting him finally and not letting him fuck with my family while I stand idly by. It may not have had permanent results, but damn if I didn't leave an impression.

But yeah, I plan on getting a job in Maine, any job, until I can seek out an apprenticeship at a tattoo parlor. I want to do that for awhile. I think being a tattoo artist would let me vent my frustrations and allow me my much sought-for freedom to be myself without worrying that I'll never have a job just because I think my body looks more beautiful with my art on it.

Be careful.

I'll try, but I am a dumbass 21-year old, so I guess I'm just going to fuck up like I always do. :I

Nah. You got it.

Kay. Sounds good.