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In Regard to My Recent Absence
14 years ago
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Welcome, my friend...
WARNING: tl;dr shit right here.
Hello, all. I'm sure that a few of you have noticed that I haven't been active at all for the past month or so. It's clear by now that I'm not dead. I've just taken a little break from the fandom to see if any benefits arose from doing so. Not taking time out of my day to hop on my computer or draw has really let me concentrate on the more important things in my life. I've started to concentrate on eating healthier and living a more active lifestyle. I'm also attempting to kick some old habits of mine, but I'm still addicted to Xbox and calling my best friend "my nig". I've also taken to using the word "faggot" a lot, which I used to be extremely opposed to. It's funny how a word that you swore you'd never utter begins to dance across your lips with ease.
So, yeah. This past month has been pretty crazy for me. For the longest time I was convinced that i was bisexual, but lately my preference has been shifted more towards girls. If I even think of being in a relationship with another guy, I feel really uncomfortable and can't help but say "ew". For the first time in about two years I'm feeling totally straight. Being a teenager who is constantly growing, I'm going to blame my past attraction to guys on hormone imbalances. Around two months ago, after I was beginning to realize that I wasn't totally bisexual anymore, so I think I'm going to stay straight 'cause I'm not growing that much anymore and my hormones seem to be at a normal level. Another thing that has come with this surprise "straightness" is that I'm starting to act like a tool/ douche/ asshole.
Another reason I've been taking a break from the fandom is that I don't feel that it's really "me", you know? I've been here for awhile, and I haven't noticed many people like me. I consider myself a jock cause I hang out with jocks and I'm a sports affectionado. I also lettered in swimming the past two years and I have a letterman's jacket. (I rarely use it, though). Another reason I've been feeling detached from other furries is that I'm feeling too old to be pretending to be an animal. Sure, I like anthropomorphic cartoon animals, but I don't feel any special connection to animals. I'm really starting to feel uncomfortable with the fandom and all of its "shadier" aspects.
Most of the people I've encountered here have been extremely friendly and supportive, and I thank all of you for your kindness. I love you guys, but ever since I take a break, things have gotten a lot better for me! I'm feeling healthier, I'm going to the local under eighteen club to socialize with friends and meet new ones, and I have more time to spend with my mother who has recently become infirmed. It feels iike the time I spend with her is speeding up her recovery. (she's gonna make a full recovery btw)
There's so much more that's been going down but it's late and I'm very tired. I might hop on here from time to time, so if I disappear for a while I'm NOT dead.
Givin' you all a hella big G-Shep hug *hugs*
~Asterix
Hello, all. I'm sure that a few of you have noticed that I haven't been active at all for the past month or so. It's clear by now that I'm not dead. I've just taken a little break from the fandom to see if any benefits arose from doing so. Not taking time out of my day to hop on my computer or draw has really let me concentrate on the more important things in my life. I've started to concentrate on eating healthier and living a more active lifestyle. I'm also attempting to kick some old habits of mine, but I'm still addicted to Xbox and calling my best friend "my nig". I've also taken to using the word "faggot" a lot, which I used to be extremely opposed to. It's funny how a word that you swore you'd never utter begins to dance across your lips with ease.
So, yeah. This past month has been pretty crazy for me. For the longest time I was convinced that i was bisexual, but lately my preference has been shifted more towards girls. If I even think of being in a relationship with another guy, I feel really uncomfortable and can't help but say "ew". For the first time in about two years I'm feeling totally straight. Being a teenager who is constantly growing, I'm going to blame my past attraction to guys on hormone imbalances. Around two months ago, after I was beginning to realize that I wasn't totally bisexual anymore, so I think I'm going to stay straight 'cause I'm not growing that much anymore and my hormones seem to be at a normal level. Another thing that has come with this surprise "straightness" is that I'm starting to act like a tool/ douche/ asshole.
Another reason I've been taking a break from the fandom is that I don't feel that it's really "me", you know? I've been here for awhile, and I haven't noticed many people like me. I consider myself a jock cause I hang out with jocks and I'm a sports affectionado. I also lettered in swimming the past two years and I have a letterman's jacket. (I rarely use it, though). Another reason I've been feeling detached from other furries is that I'm feeling too old to be pretending to be an animal. Sure, I like anthropomorphic cartoon animals, but I don't feel any special connection to animals. I'm really starting to feel uncomfortable with the fandom and all of its "shadier" aspects.
Most of the people I've encountered here have been extremely friendly and supportive, and I thank all of you for your kindness. I love you guys, but ever since I take a break, things have gotten a lot better for me! I'm feeling healthier, I'm going to the local under eighteen club to socialize with friends and meet new ones, and I have more time to spend with my mother who has recently become infirmed. It feels iike the time I spend with her is speeding up her recovery. (she's gonna make a full recovery btw)
There's so much more that's been going down but it's late and I'm very tired. I might hop on here from time to time, so if I disappear for a while I'm NOT dead.
Givin' you all a hella big G-Shep hug *hugs*
~Asterix
Well me and the fandom aren't like the past either...I really dont have a fursona anymore and RPing has gotten annoying. I still draw anthro and furry art, but they are of random characters. I dont socialize with many furries anymore, because my ACTUAL social life takes up most of my free time! I still love furry art though! I have over 300 pics saved to my computer of nothing but art i've found from FA. (:
And the Bisexual thing, i know where your coming from; Ever since iv been telling people im bi, Iv felt a greater connection towards girls...i guess because i think girls find it cute lol. But about half of my friends are girls;hot ones ;D .. and It just opens up a more sensitive sid of me. I think its awesome that you are happy with who you are, and I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart for helping me discover who I am. (:
Dont forget to keep in touch!!!
- Yah broskeyy, Ian