Well Anthro Con has come to a close. I have cemented many friendships, and perhaps started a few more. I really felt accepted and at home, I’m proud and overjoyed, and I’ll come back again next year, for this, there is no doubt. But really, as much as I would love to talk about just that. This isn’t about that.

It’s about my life, and while AC was a big step forward for me, I don’t have much time to reflect, as another big event has come crashing down.  Latias714 and I are no longer together. We met, and it was great, but he is now sure he is straight, and no matter how much he loves me, he can’t really do anything about it. I will say now, that nobody better give him a rough time, or I will personally assault them.

Our love was pure, and sweet, and amazing beyond words. I really have no dears of losing him, but of never finding that again in a romantic setting. I really can’t say what the future holds, and that is very scary. But I know there is nothing wrong with my past. I have made no mistakes not worth making, and I have never been fake, only true.

I almost wish I could be angry, or mad, spiteful, or petty. This would most likely make the hurt be less so. But this is not who I am. For me to do so would compromise my very self, and make me weak and pathetic. I will admit, my life is hell right now, but I can place no blame on Don. Only upon myself, and my father. He has shown the great contrast between the life I live, and the one I want.

He has shown me not a bit of love, and has only acted crude and hatful, insulting me, and my friends. But life has been hard on him, and it is my own fault for living with him now as I do. I’m not sure I can forgive him anymore, he’s just slowly become a worst person and he is really hurt me right now while I’m still vulnerable. It should show how much a really loath him, when I cannot say I hate the wonderful boy who just broke up with me, and yet can say he is the scum of the earth.

So now what? Well now I take all the experience I’ve gained from theses event, all the joy, and the pain, and the love, and the hate, and use it to move forward. That is the only thing I can do, stepping back is not an option at this point.

I suppose the only thing I can say is, me being me, if any of you have help to give in any way, shape, or form, please do. I have gotten to feel so many wonderful things from you all, and while I feel strong, I’m not sure I can do this without you all. There is still so little I know of the world outside my little gated home. I feel so unwelcome on this patch of land now, only a few accept me as a truly am. I hope I don’t talk to you less, but I need to finish the school BS so I can escape, even if my dad and so called teacher won’t help.

So please friends, keep me strong, and make sure I don’t step back, I know I need spread these wings of mine out into the world, as I’ve grown so tired of this damn cage. I know I can do it, I can move on from this locked up part of my life without losing you all, I refuse to accept any other option, what do you all say to all of this?