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14 years ago
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hi. can you help me ?i'm lost.
i started college last fall, knowing exactly what i was doing. i was going to school for Aerospace engineering. had never failed anything in school. now, two semesters later, i am undecided and coming off a semester in which i failed every single class, putting me in academic probation. in two words OH FUCK. i was essentially kicked out of my major and lost a major scholarship. i am now at a 1.39 gpa over all,will owe 4000plus more out of my own pocket per year and have no idea what to do. obviously, i should take a bunch of gimme classes to build up my GPA but which ones?
i dont even know what i want to study any more. nothing seems right. and if i dont go to school my only choice is to get a job and i have been tryig to get one for the last 6 weeks with no luck. the only thing that is going right for me is getting my drivers license, and thats cause i was PUShed to do so. people tell me choose what you love to do, but 1. I DONT KNOW WHAT I LOVE TO DO THAT IS OCCUPATIONALLY VIABLE and 2. I"M AFRAID OF FAILING AGAIN or 3. CHANGING MAJORS SO MANY TIMES TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT THAT I END BEING AN UNDERGRADUATE FOREVER.
I've been praying for the "gibbs moment" as i call it where god or some other intuition or sense tlls me "DUH this is what you are suppose to be doing" it hasnt come. i've thought through things , i've prayed, i've prayed a diffrent way, i've asked for diffrent things, and its has been silent as a tomb. i feel like a failure because i havent been hired yet and cant seem to get to teh end of a plan. ( i was originally trying to become and officer in hte U.S. Navy or Marine Corps, then become an aerospace engineer) every one else from my graduating class seems to have it all together. i was saying to them senior year, i was going to a,b,c,and d. what do i say in 10 years at the reunion (aka high school revisited?) when im either doing something completely diffrent or not doing anything at all?
i started college last fall, knowing exactly what i was doing. i was going to school for Aerospace engineering. had never failed anything in school. now, two semesters later, i am undecided and coming off a semester in which i failed every single class, putting me in academic probation. in two words OH FUCK. i was essentially kicked out of my major and lost a major scholarship. i am now at a 1.39 gpa over all,will owe 4000plus more out of my own pocket per year and have no idea what to do. obviously, i should take a bunch of gimme classes to build up my GPA but which ones?
i dont even know what i want to study any more. nothing seems right. and if i dont go to school my only choice is to get a job and i have been tryig to get one for the last 6 weeks with no luck. the only thing that is going right for me is getting my drivers license, and thats cause i was PUShed to do so. people tell me choose what you love to do, but 1. I DONT KNOW WHAT I LOVE TO DO THAT IS OCCUPATIONALLY VIABLE and 2. I"M AFRAID OF FAILING AGAIN or 3. CHANGING MAJORS SO MANY TIMES TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT THAT I END BEING AN UNDERGRADUATE FOREVER.
I've been praying for the "gibbs moment" as i call it where god or some other intuition or sense tlls me "DUH this is what you are suppose to be doing" it hasnt come. i've thought through things , i've prayed, i've prayed a diffrent way, i've asked for diffrent things, and its has been silent as a tomb. i feel like a failure because i havent been hired yet and cant seem to get to teh end of a plan. ( i was originally trying to become and officer in hte U.S. Navy or Marine Corps, then become an aerospace engineer) every one else from my graduating class seems to have it all together. i was saying to them senior year, i was going to a,b,c,and d. what do i say in 10 years at the reunion (aka high school revisited?) when im either doing something completely diffrent or not doing anything at all?
