Feeling Emo!
18 years ago
Everythin is happening so fast I'm loosing track of everything, my friends, college, my job.... even my beloved... I somehow feel like my friends are slowly walking away from me, as if I say something to upset them... or am I being way too annoying... My BF tells me that a lot...
I'm doing a thesis to graduate, this is my 6th year for a bachellor and I'm so tired can't stand another year if I don;t pass this thesis, and I'm not doing so good either >_<....
Iknow we've been busy with the thesis and all (My BF is doing it too) but It seems we're drifting away from each other... or did it happened a long time ago and I'm just noticing it now... no... maybe I just don't want to acept it... it's been 4 years already.
*Sigh* I'm feeling so lonely..........
I'm doing a thesis to graduate, this is my 6th year for a bachellor and I'm so tired can't stand another year if I don;t pass this thesis, and I'm not doing so good either >_<....
Iknow we've been busy with the thesis and all (My BF is doing it too) but It seems we're drifting away from each other... or did it happened a long time ago and I'm just noticing it now... no... maybe I just don't want to acept it... it's been 4 years already.
*Sigh* I'm feeling so lonely..........
I expect to see you guys in PR and hang out and stuff!.
Cheer up
Love ya
~Rilest~
ssaid (a few days ago) it all was cuz he shut me out. like a defense system in his head. mostly happens with people close to him, a way to prevent him from harm I guess..... so there it is...
having another just wont do, I can have sex with anyone... but all I want is someone to love me back the way I am, not cuz of how I look or what I do.
I believe that hving a Real partner in life is not like a having a toy that you can discard any time and get another. there is trust, luve confort, support... I dunno...whatever maybe I'm talking nonsense