How bout getting off of these antibiotics?
how bout stopping eating when im full up?
how bout them transparent dangling carrots?
How bout that ever elusive kudo?

Thank you india
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment!
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you THANK YOU silence!

how bout me not blaming you for everything?
how bout me enjoying the moment for once?
how bout how good it feels to FINALLY FORGIVE ME?
how bout grieving it all one at a time?

thank you india
thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence!

the moment I let go of it
was the moment I got more than I could handle
the moment I jumped off of it
was the moment that i touched down...

how bout no longer being masochistic?
how bout remembering your divinity?
how bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out?
How bout not equating death with starving?

thank you india
thank you providence
thank you disillusionment!
thank you nothingness
thank you clarity
thank you THANK YOU silence!


I love you spubbs