So, here's another post again about my anxiety issues :/ I apologize for spamming, but I just kinda need to talk about this.

So for the first week and a half that my parents were gone in Paris, I was totally fine, wasn't really anxious, had a good time with my brother and my friend, but then that changed. The tuesday that just passed, my friend and I were at the zoo sketching and painting, and we had stopped for lunch.
Out of no where, had a sudden huge pang of anxiety, lasted about 20-30 minutes, and then I was fine the rest of the day. On wednesday, later in the day at around 6, started having really bad anxiety. It lasted a long time, a couple times being a breathe away from another panic attack, but I took an anxiety pill, kept myself from panicing until it started working, and fell asleep for around 15 minutes. Since then, I've had some anxiety each day, not too bad, until last night. Took another pill, but hadd to stay on the phone with my friend for like an hour, and really didn't know what to do (when you're that anxious, your brain just can't stop panicing and things that are clear when you're not anxious are made really hard to grasp when you are).

So now, I'm back at home, alone. First time I'll be spending a night alone since my parents have left. I know logically I'll be fine, but it's when I'm anxious that everything just seems SO overwhelming. Please cross your fingers for me :/ I've got my kitty here to help me, but that can only help so much. Week and a bit until my parents get back and, as sad as it may sound, I can't wait for them to be here. I really need their support right now. Until then, I'm holding on.

Sorry for the really sombre journal; just wanted to type this up and let you know what's going on.

Leara