Life as of late...Has been exciting, for lack of a better word. Not necessarily in a good way, though...

Since my last journal, the feeling has gotten worse. But it eventually stopped getting worse and is now at a stable level of distaste, so...I guess that's a good thing? I can't really decide. I've found myself extremely frustrated with a select few people, but am not sure it's just me when it comes to them. For the most part, I kinda just wanna be left alone. The most part. I enjoy just going with the flow and tagging along with a particular friend, and hope to continue doing so for so long as they can put up with me. I hope I haven't already hit their threshold...x_x It's calming to be around them, and I've noticed my problems bother me less and it's easier to deal with things when they're around. Which frankly, at this point, is really nice.
I'm pretty much just...worn out. Between feeling depressed or pissed lately, I feel like soon I'm going to get to that point where I just don't give a shit for awhile. Part of me is looking forward to it. Heh..

Earlier this week, I kinda had a bit of a scare...I ran in my apartment to grab a few things before heading out somewhere and found my mom in a questionable state...Among other things, she told me it was quite possible she might lose her job. The unfortunate thing is she is the only source of income and if she loses her job, my family is kinda screwed. Thankfully, although it took a week of her and her boss going back and forth with each other, she's still employed and the next month or two are going to be tighter than usual, but we should be alright.

As for myself, I had a job interview earlier today, for McDonald's (better to have a shitty job than to not have a job), and was told by my interviewer after a bland, boring interview with questions read straight from a piece of paper that he was going to recommend me to the lovely lady that does the hiring (and that his recommendation usually gets people the job) and that I would be receiving a call tomorrow informing me when orientation is. I'll know for sure then, but here's hoping his recommendation does indeed get me the job. If I do get it, I should also be getting 40 hours a week. Full time! The amount of time I'd be spending in a sub-par fast food restaurant makes me cringe, but then I think about how much I'll get in return for that time and it doesn't seem so bad anymore. I need a car more than I even want to be picky.

Currently, I'm pondering my future, dodging someone's advances, and wishing I was elsewhere. My place really is unexciting and boring. I'll probably head out for a walk soon, and - ...and I had to stop there because our hot water heater started leaking. And my mom is now a ball of crazy...not too far from usual. Well, let's revise that. I'll probably start drawing soon, sketching, and start thinking about people in general, my current standing with some of them, and which of those standings I would like to change...And how exactly I would like to change them, whether it means taking a step back, or trying to take a step forward.
...Because whatever I'm doing now isn't really working for me.