Just tripped across this gem and had an odd thought. The setup of that story is a lot like Persona, and it got me thinking about what mine would be. I came to the conclusion that I don't really have one of my own and just use everyone else's. So it's not even a traditional main character thing from the series. All those guys have some sort of default that's unique to them, even if it's a name that's been used before. Mine is... blank. I've known who I was for so long that I don't really have any masks to hide behind. It didn't used to be that way. I used to write in character online, but I've found in recent years that I've lost the ability to slip into the roles that I used to be able to slip into in seconds. None of my characters are "me" anymore, human or non.

Maybe it's just a change in my creativity at this point, knowing a character inside and out without having to "be" them anymore to fully do it, and that's probably healthier for me. That lets me be me instead of having to bounce around all the time, or maybe it's more subtle now, like more of a mind link than assuming an identity. Vinnie is probably the best example I have on here of a living, breathing person, which is a bit sad, because Brandon needs that more, since Glass Box was always supposed to be primarily from his perspective. Brandon... honestly has some kinks to work out. I really don't know what to do with him right now or how to mix his various experiences with his general innocence very well. I suppose he's just harder because he's less caricatured. Vinnie, funnily enough, is very predictable in his own way. Brandon, not so much. Okay, Vinnie can behave quite erratically at times, but everything he does makes sense from HIS perspective, where Brandon doesn't really know where he is or what he's working with and potentially can end up doing something incredibly stupid or incredibly smart or both in the same action.

Back to the main point, though. I know I've been slapping down some proper OCs lately, but honestly past what's already written for them or in the works, they're probably not going anywhere. John was based on an original visual idea for a potential fursona, but he's not me and so it doesn't make much sense. Jacobus is an interesting concept character with a lot of porn potential, but I have no money set aside for art and no real interest in getting any of him anyway. I guess I'm running into the issue of being too strong in my real self to really break out of it for a persona. I'm great at writing characters, not so great at assuming their identities anymore.

Just some thoughts on my part. Other than that, been flitting around from task to task in pursuits not around here without accomplishing much. I haven't written anything for here in a while and while there is an idea in my head for a story that's been nagging for weeks (and you thought I was just making that up, didn't you? :P) I haven't started hammering it out. Been too tired and too occupied with other stuff in my free time. Then I still have a request to fill. I feel bad about not producing, but to be honest, I've just been "blah" since my job began and maybe I just need to do stuff for myself for a while, rather than worrying about any audience.