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14 years ago
Journal of a Neglected Demon of Lust
Wow..I need to update this more often. Maybe even add pics now and then if I can ever get a scanner (or if someone has an old tablet to donate...)
Towards the end of june, I moved in with my mate - who I had been with for six years. Spent a month living with him, and ended up walking 200 miles to get back to my brother's apartment because things fell apart between me and my mate. I understood he had problems, and was losing 10% of his right foot from osteomialitis. Also, I understood that only one of us had income - and there was four of us. But to call me a lier, a thief, a whore, and a slut - not to mention the word I hear alot - ugly..and tell me to walk back to my brothers.. that was uncalled for. But, I should have known it wouldn't work out.. He spent all the money he had, plus the money any one of us had, on Bakugon toys and transformers. Even baught collector toys and took them out of their box to play with... When he sent me away, he called me a thief - claiming I stole his iPod and GBA games. A few days ago, he IM's me to apologize for accusing me of theft. I accepted that apology, and though he wants me back - I'll remain friends with him but thats as far as I'll endanger my heart again.
Sending me away tells me I am not loved, never was, and never will be. Forcing me to walk 200 miles tells me that he doesn't care. I passed out twice from heat exhaustion. Nearly had a heat stroke. And was sunburned like mad (looked like a ripe tomato).
But now, nearly two weeks later, I have fallen in love again. Yes, many may believe that it's too soon. But love is never too soon, and if you pass up an oppertunity for love, you lose it and it is gone. So, I declare my love for this - unnamed man for now, as he just had a recent break up himself and I accepted him in his entirety.
As for me, I bid adeu for now, mon joli petit ami's.
Towards the end of june, I moved in with my mate - who I had been with for six years. Spent a month living with him, and ended up walking 200 miles to get back to my brother's apartment because things fell apart between me and my mate. I understood he had problems, and was losing 10% of his right foot from osteomialitis. Also, I understood that only one of us had income - and there was four of us. But to call me a lier, a thief, a whore, and a slut - not to mention the word I hear alot - ugly..and tell me to walk back to my brothers.. that was uncalled for. But, I should have known it wouldn't work out.. He spent all the money he had, plus the money any one of us had, on Bakugon toys and transformers. Even baught collector toys and took them out of their box to play with... When he sent me away, he called me a thief - claiming I stole his iPod and GBA games. A few days ago, he IM's me to apologize for accusing me of theft. I accepted that apology, and though he wants me back - I'll remain friends with him but thats as far as I'll endanger my heart again.
Sending me away tells me I am not loved, never was, and never will be. Forcing me to walk 200 miles tells me that he doesn't care. I passed out twice from heat exhaustion. Nearly had a heat stroke. And was sunburned like mad (looked like a ripe tomato).
But now, nearly two weeks later, I have fallen in love again. Yes, many may believe that it's too soon. But love is never too soon, and if you pass up an oppertunity for love, you lose it and it is gone. So, I declare my love for this - unnamed man for now, as he just had a recent break up himself and I accepted him in his entirety.
As for me, I bid adeu for now, mon joli petit ami's.
