So yeah, I've messed up quite a few times in my life, mostly because I get scared of people getting too close to me. I end up freaking out and hurting people when I don't mean to. I really don't understand what attracts people to me, and that right there is confusing in it's own right. There are times when I really wish I could be invisible and cringe when people look at me. I honestly feel like I don't deserve to be loved.

There is a side of me most people don't see. Yes, I can be quite friendly and bubbly and seem outgoing, but I am actually really shy, more so in the past few years. Sometimes I just can't handle the attention, it gets the better of me and I run and hide.




*note I am not doing this to gain sympathy or anything of the like, I am trying to be honest with people and this is me apologizing for being a freak*