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absolutely disinterested
14 years ago
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I don't know what it is. Logging onto FA feels like a chore. FAF? Don't get me started. I have absolutely no interest in any sort of "community" this site offers. I've tried shifting accounts; maybe that would reignite the interest. But then I realized I'm just sick of it. The elitism, the self-hate, the needless unprovoked attacks, the hypocrisy, the people in fucking general.
I don't consider myself a step above the "average furry". But I'd like to think I'm a little more socially adept than people who scream for equality and consider themselves "above" trolling or w/e.
But I also don't consider myself a troll/provoker/angry person. I hate conflict. And this fandom is nothing but that. I know I shouldn't expect much from an internet community, but goddamn. I just want to look at art and make friends. That was the whole point of me joining FA/F in the first place, and I did make friends, despite being a drama queen.
But...I'm not interested in drama anymore. I just want to relax and joke around, and I feel like there's nothing to gain by staying here. Everyone is uptight. I don't feel like I can contribute to this place, and I don't feel like I've gained anything by being here, besides some friends that for some odd reason stuck around despite my flakiness.
I really adore art. I do. And of course there's jokes about that. When I have disposable income, I get art. That's my hobby. But now I can't even look at a piece without thinking about someone who will accuse me of spending any money at all. People do odd things when they're stressed. I buy art. It's my thing. I get a cathartic feeling watching the process, and feel happy when it's finished.
It doesn't feel worth it anymore. No online community does, and that stings. I want to make friends, and I want to be social, but I also want to avoid conflicts and drama. I can't have both, especially with my learned behavior of being a complete dick to anyone who irritates me.
tl;dr: Doesn't feel worth it to be here. May take an extended vacation.
If you need to send me a message: contact me via top_percentage_rattata @ yahoo.com
I don't consider myself a step above the "average furry". But I'd like to think I'm a little more socially adept than people who scream for equality and consider themselves "above" trolling or w/e.
But I also don't consider myself a troll/provoker/angry person. I hate conflict. And this fandom is nothing but that. I know I shouldn't expect much from an internet community, but goddamn. I just want to look at art and make friends. That was the whole point of me joining FA/F in the first place, and I did make friends, despite being a drama queen.
But...I'm not interested in drama anymore. I just want to relax and joke around, and I feel like there's nothing to gain by staying here. Everyone is uptight. I don't feel like I can contribute to this place, and I don't feel like I've gained anything by being here, besides some friends that for some odd reason stuck around despite my flakiness.
I really adore art. I do. And of course there's jokes about that. When I have disposable income, I get art. That's my hobby. But now I can't even look at a piece without thinking about someone who will accuse me of spending any money at all. People do odd things when they're stressed. I buy art. It's my thing. I get a cathartic feeling watching the process, and feel happy when it's finished.
It doesn't feel worth it anymore. No online community does, and that stings. I want to make friends, and I want to be social, but I also want to avoid conflicts and drama. I can't have both, especially with my learned behavior of being a complete dick to anyone who irritates me.
tl;dr: Doesn't feel worth it to be here. May take an extended vacation.
If you need to send me a message: contact me via top_percentage_rattata @ yahoo.com
In any case, breaks will help you feel better :3
and yeah... FAF is a fucking shithole DX
But I'm still a youtube addict nevertheless, and I'm only occasionally / sometimes on FA. I found more friends on Youtube who I meet in real life and share the same thoughts, much more than here on furaffinity or in the furry community, dunno why, oh well. :>