to my friends back in rolla. that when they gave me advice. i turned away. when they cared for me. i told them they didnt. that when i said they were saying i was stupid. i believed myself instead of them. i want to apologize. because. i know you wanted to help. im where you were with me. getting the same. and so now i see how i treated you. how i didnt listen. how... i hurt you. and im sorry. i really am. and i hope you read this.