Thank God Christmas is over! Don't get me wrong. It's not that I don't like the holliday (it's my favourite one actually), the thing is that I got so damned depressed... AGH!!! It wasn't cool :( I was really sad not having my family for Christmas but tried ignoring it just having fun anyway. Sadly I forgot to call my parents via webcam so my dad left me a really cold IM the other day... it was harsh and made me cry (and if you know me in real life it's hard making me cry), it also messed me up and got me into thinking that moving to Los Angeles was a mistake...

I haven't entered college and if I do get in I can't study the career I want since I'm not going to recieve financial aid from the government. So I have to study in comunity college and get my GED (I don't know how long this will take) and THEN go into an art school and study illustration... or to another college and study psychology... OR BOTH! DOUBLE MAJOR YEA BTCHZ!

So yes that had me depressed... oh and the fact that I still don't have a job... it makes me feel like I'm a parasite in my sister's house ^^;. I know she doesn't say anything but I want to earn my own money so I can pay for the things I like or want and hopefully pay a bill or two for her. I DON'T WANNA BE A PARASITE!!! They're icky... I had parasites some time ago... not pretty y'know... ^^;.

So yush... I was depressed... BUT NOT ANYMORE!!! Because I realized that right now I'm going through a shitty time. But bah, that's just the way life is. It slams the door shut in your face but you can't just break down and cry forever, you have to keep looking for other alternatives... or simply... BREAK THAT FRICKEN DOOR OPEN AND BARGE THROUGH!!! It's hard and might seem impossible at times but hell just go for it and give it your all. Enjoy all the moments of life, the good and the bad. Haha if life was always pink and pretty I'm sure it would be... BORING!!! I SEE FRICKEN PINK FLYING PONIES EVERYWHERE AND THEY ARE SHITTING SUGAR COATED TURDS ON MY HEAD!!!

Lol, sorry that was pretty random but yes. My advice to you and myself (yes it's one of my multiple personalities typing), enjoy life no matter what. Value your life, family, friends, your home, tell them how much you love them or even how much you hate them, lol... because when they're gone is when you will trully realize what you've lost.

I know it's early but I wont update this journal for a while so... HAPPY NEW YEARS GUYS!!! I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST AND MAY ALL YOUR WISHES AND ASPIRATIONS BE ACCOMPLISHED IN THE 2008!!!

I love you all!

Meli

My amazing Mexican friends:  Juano  Almasy