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Aheria
14 years ago
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As most of you know by now, two weeks ago, my mate of 5 years, Sabrina-Ann Louise Shaw aka Aheria, took her own life. Its very difficult to even contemplate why she made such a decision, but why is something that will never be understood. I know many knew that she had trouble in life, with illness, depression, and in friendships, but know this; in the end, only one person made the decision, the choice, that she took, and no one else did for her. I really don't want to talk about the event, I have a very hard time with it, the trauma of what I saw still terrifies me, I still can't sleep in my own house as of now, its too much to bear.
She was loved by many, and its been very surprising and comforting to see just how much people have come forward to offer both their support and condolences, and to those who have, I thank you, I appreciate everything that has been said and the various notes, art, and tributes. For all of you who knew her and even those who did not, know that she is in a better place, a place without pain or suffering, where her memory can live on forever in our hearts and minds.
Alkaline and I are planning her memorial service, as according to her remaining family's wishes, she was cremated. We will hold her memorial service at Lakewood Park in Lakewood, OH, and are currently raising funds to dedicate a tree to forever honor her memory. We are planning to hold the service this month, either the 3rd or 4th Saturday morning, not sure as of now, I will provide more information as I can solidify plans with the Lakewood Parks Department. For those who would like to attend, there is an open invitation to anyone who would like to attend, as this will be a chance to say goodbye, since no one had that opportunity when she was still with us. If you cannot attend for some reason, please feel free to light a candle in remembrance, or whatever you'd like to do in accordance to your beliefs at the time of the ceremony.
If you'd like to help Alkaline and I raise the funds for the tree dedication, please feel free to get a hold of either of us and let us know what you'd like to do, everything helps, and it would be greatly appreciated.
She was loved by many, and its been very surprising and comforting to see just how much people have come forward to offer both their support and condolences, and to those who have, I thank you, I appreciate everything that has been said and the various notes, art, and tributes. For all of you who knew her and even those who did not, know that she is in a better place, a place without pain or suffering, where her memory can live on forever in our hearts and minds.
Alkaline and I are planning her memorial service, as according to her remaining family's wishes, she was cremated. We will hold her memorial service at Lakewood Park in Lakewood, OH, and are currently raising funds to dedicate a tree to forever honor her memory. We are planning to hold the service this month, either the 3rd or 4th Saturday morning, not sure as of now, I will provide more information as I can solidify plans with the Lakewood Parks Department. For those who would like to attend, there is an open invitation to anyone who would like to attend, as this will be a chance to say goodbye, since no one had that opportunity when she was still with us. If you cannot attend for some reason, please feel free to light a candle in remembrance, or whatever you'd like to do in accordance to your beliefs at the time of the ceremony.
If you'd like to help Alkaline and I raise the funds for the tree dedication, please feel free to get a hold of either of us and let us know what you'd like to do, everything helps, and it would be greatly appreciated.
I'm gonna repost this, if that's okay.
My thoughts go to you and her family, friends.
I know it's still very soon to ask about this, but I was wondering if you would like me to send a print of the conbadge? Take whatever time you need. I'm certainly not looking for an immediate answer. I just thought I would pose the question to let you know about it, in case you weren't aware.
Whatever your decision, I'll be happy to oblige.
If I had the availability to, I would definitely attend the memorial. I'm honestly sorry that I can't. She was a sweetheart, and I'm sorry you've had to endure such an incredible loss.
I'll draw you something if you like, if you'd just tell me what you'd want
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/6440161/
I hope that she made her decision of sound mind, and I hope that when death came to her, she felt no pain and no regret.
Slowly, very slowly, you'll see yourself start to be able to function again. You don't move on, I won't lie to you that you do, but you do start to have a life again. She will never be forgotten, at least in your mind, and I'm sure in many others. That's how she'll live on, in your memories.
I wish you strength.
When grieving for a lost friend, I found this song to be of some comfort:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fQ3wpjdYMqk
I'm still, nearly three weeks later, at a loss for words. I've tried to bring myself to say something, anything on any of the Journals. But nothing I think of can ever be enough. She was such an amazing person; and although I only met her at Anthrocon 2010, I was truly hoping to get to know her better now that Voo and Dearc were out in Ohio as well; as I figured you all would be constantly together.
It's a tragedy I can barely comprehend. I'm so sorry for your loss Kashi. But no words will ever suffice. She was a fantastic person, and she had a friend in so many people in this fandom, even if drama did stir on the occasion. I'll try to make it from New Hampshire for the memorial service if I can. But if not, she, and you will both me in my thoughts on that day.
*Hugs*
I'm so, so incredibly sorry.
I'm so so...sorry.....
I drew for her a few times and loved her chars...
I'm sorry...
All I can do is offer condolences.
I do not know you both, but may she rest in peace, and may you have the strenght and support to continue and live with that terrible event