As I lay here sad I think about everything that’s going on in my life and thinking about everyone’s relationship problems and even my own relationship problems since I’ve been single for some time I can’t help but to feel helpless but I try to help when I can but some times when I do I get nipped at but I still try to help people no matter what but it tacks its toll sometimes but I hold friends and family so closely because to me without them I’m useless and I hate being alone… But yet I feel like I’ve been alone for so long… So I can’t help but to drink and cry when I pull this mask off I hardly ever let this side of me out because some people call me week or a drama queen and other things so I have a hard time trusting people with this side of me so I hide my pain behind this painful mask and at the end of the day I tack it off and cry as I crawl into my cold empty bed and cuddle with my pillows then slowly close my eyes wishing they were somebody anybody to hold me as I cry myself to sleep… I’m sry that im venting a little and I don’t mean to offend or hurt anybody by saying any of this I don’t want anything to change I just want people to know how I fell… and so im off to my bed I hope tomorrow’s a batter day but I can’t say one way or the other night every one