To the ones I love & Care for,

I know I don't say much in the feelings category due to my Depression, Anxiety, & Emptiness. But I do care how others feel and that I hurt them. It is hard to think when you are so clouded in your head and the only people that understand are the ones that are the same way. life is a big void we find things to fill this void some use drugs some drink some jump out of a airplane lol. But all & all we all try to fill the void in our own way. And although I don't say it much I do care about all of you that care about me you know who you are so I don't need to explain. With all this said this was to all of you but also to my love aka my other half http://www.furaffinity.net/user/scales4sales Now this is to you my love I know I don't say it a lot but I do love you very much you & Cheyenne. I know it is hard dealing with my emptiness but I do try to show you how I feel its just hard some times. What I love about you you always ask me to say something and I always am blank so now that I am not put on the spot and can now think about it I can now tell you!



#1: I Love Your Personality you can be a kid at heart but a adult when you need to be like my self that is rare to find a balance most of the time people are only one or the other to childish or to serious and never have fun.

#2: I Love The way you smile, The way you look at me, The way you kiss me I can feel the the love pore from you that is how I know all you say and do is real!

#3: I Love the the way You make every day fun and exciting the way we wrestle and kid around and tag team Cheyenne and tickle her lol

#4: I Love the way you watch movies with me even if sometimes you already saw it or its not you kind of movie.

#5: I Love how you are a Horror fanatic like me and love to watch all kinds of horror movies and enjoy spooky things.

#6: I Love that you are artistic like me and enjoy all kinds of art and creating it for fun and money.

#7: I Love that you want to some day soon make horror special effects with me and even make a low budget movie.

#8: I Love that you are affectionate and like to cuddle even though I don't say it I like that and enjoy it.

#9: I Love that you love the wilderness and the outdoors and like to go camping

#10: I Love that we like the same music and you always listen to my music even if you don't know it And even some times learn that you like it after listening to it.

#11: I Love that Fall & Spring is your favorite times of the year same as my self.

#12: I Love that you want me to be me the Good & Bad but you take me for who I am with all my flaws.

#13: I Love that you are a Animal lover.

#14: I Love that you have faith in me more then I have faith in my self.

#15: I Love how you like Monster's, Zombies, Vampires, Werewolves, ghost & other things that go bump in the night.

#16: I Love how you are really not into sports because I am not really into sports my self.

#17: I Love how you are not materialistic & enjoy the simpler thing in life.

#18: I Love that you are willing to get your hands dirty if needed.

#19: I Love that you like all the shows I like aka judge shows, CSI shows, Adult swim, forensic files, discovery channel, History channel etc.

#20: I Love how you play video games with me like the game borderlands for hours at a time not just a few minutes & you enjoy playing lol.

#21: I Love that you like black & white movies and videos like Lorelle and hardy, Marx brothers, three stooges, Abbott and Costello and other movies as well like ones with boris karloff, Vincent price, Bela Lugosi etc.

#22: I Love that you are a good mother & that you don't just treat our child like a item or a pet. You always try to be there for her & help her out when she needs the help. But you don't baby here either that is good because in the long run this will be better for her personalty She will be more respectful & a better person because of it.

#23: I Love the fact that you are very caring & always want to help others but not just give all of your money away to any charity that has there hand out that is good because if you were like that then we our selves would be poor.

#24: I Love that we both have our own favorite color and I love that both Blue & Green colors mix well together.

#25: I Love that you are romantic although it may seam like I am not I really am I am just cloudy in the mind lately so I am glad you are any way & hope soon I can be more aware of feelings like I use to back in the day growing up.

#26: I Love that you drink from time to time with me but you are not a alcoholic.

#27: I Love that you are out going & spontaneous when I am laid back & relaxed you are fire & I am wind you are of the god or war & chaos I am of the goddess of love & balance.

#28: I Love how you think I am sexy and attractive even though I am getting older & getting gray hair more like mr. fantastic & you loving it lol

#29: I Love that you are my coach & even when I don't want to hear the things you have to say some times like about my health & motivation I still am glad you care enough to tell me all the things you are feeling.

#30: I Love that you tell me what is on your mind most of the time & you don't keep it all inside & trust that I wont judge you for the things you are thinking or are going threw & know I am there for you whether to be a shoulder to cry on a voice of reason I am always here for you.

{OK}30 things I love about you I could go on & on but I just wanted to tell you all the things I cant say when you put me on the spot so every time you think I don't care or I am to empty to feel things just come back to this post

to reassure to you that I do see things and feel things even though it is hard to express some times I do care & LOVE YOU!



=~*HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABY!*~=