Tired. Stressed. Sickly...didn't make it to the furmeet tonight, which I'd been looking forward to. Just didn't feel up to it, and didn't get much done today.

And while my kitty has been doing a lot better that she was, she's still not 100%. Went on the family trip to my grandparents' and did okay except for a few very small bouts of drooling. She's barfing again today, though; only a little earlier today, which I hoped was maybe just a hairball, but now it's definitely bringing up food.
She's also getting cleverer about finding and spitting out her meds, th'liddle twit. I may need to resort to the topical ear-rub version next month. Hopefully it won't be too much more expensive that her current drugs. (And of course my friend whose recently-deceased cat had thyroid crap going on had to bring up the likelihood that MY kitty will now also require regular testing of her liver and kidney and such to make sure her meds aren't killing off important organs, which makes sense but really may not fly. : 0-( My parents are paying for all this. Not especially happily. And...yeah, they've also been stupid and horrible enough, previously, when I was in the middle of all my own medical issues, to suggest dumping my cat at the shelter. When she was still a bit younger and lacked medical issues, mind (still unlikely to get adopted, though, at her age, even if dumping one's inconveniences on animal shelters was actually an okay thing to do on your whim). Which is another concern on my mind.)

Overall, I'm worried. And not dealing with it very well, particularly since if this cat goes (and my rats who are getting even more elderly) I don't know when...or if...I'll be able to get another pet. I usually handle pet death okay, weirdly, but I do NOT think petlessness is going to sit well with me. At all. Especially in the middle of still struggling through this whole depression thing.

Bryndel is not a happy pup. And effing hating this statistics homework that's already late... finding it hard to care too much, though, in the light of other, non-school problems.
And I really, really miss my dog in particular. I'm not sure I'm going to get much sleep tonight, or tomorrow night either for that matter.