Is this really only my third journal on here? Odd, I guess I'm not much for the whole online public speaking my life story via text on a public page online...a furry one at that. This doesn't mean I don't have these thoughts, a constant toil in my head of things I've done and things I plan to do. Deciding what is right and what is wrong, constantly weighing the pros and cons of every decision that comes along my path. I'm an analyzer and I spend a significant amount of time figuring people out, carefully learning their interests and how they function. Why I can become good friends with someone without them even really scratching the surface of who I am and what things I may enjoy. Half the time I really do feel as if I go out of my way to make others happy way before I even think about what effect it may have on me, whether it be psychological or physical.
Memory is also key with me, and Ive noticed in the past few weeks it really depends where you stand on the totem pole with me to how much of my memory gets dedicated to you. Someone very influential in my life who holds a lot of meaning to me seems to take up my full attention and things happening involving either them personally or something that has happened with them will stick for years and years on end. However if I were to begin to fall out with that person then the memories seem to also begin to fade. It's odd...and I'm probably not articulating exactly what I mean over text, but eh.

i'm rambling...i'm bored, i want to go home and sleep, and be fine in the head, and things go back to happy and normal and good and such.

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