I'm sorry you're doing bad :( I hope you can pay your bills soon! (I can't help I'm afraid.. same issues :( )

btw, if you're feeling depressed, make sure to get out of the house enough and do things that make you happy :3 the world and life can be very harsh on you, but I promise the good times are worth it. Spoil yourself a little and try to enjoy everything you have at the moment, and if it's just the fact that you're alive, have a roof over your head and know there are people who care about you and wouldn't be the same without the impact you've had on them!

I'll be stuck at home, i have no gas, no money and a very strict father who says "if i live under his roof i follow his rules" his rules, if i have no job i do not leave the house.

your dad needs to seriously rethink his parenting style x_X I wonder if you ever have money again if you could get him to do therapy with him. If he IS willing, you might have a chance to work things out because some parents actually change if a "professional" tells them they've been doing it wrong.

he wont hes stubborn