Clearing My Head
14 years ago
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█ I'm just making this journal entry mostly to bump the previous one off my front page. I don't believe in lying to myself, and that the things I say and express are something true to me. I'm not always tactful, I accept that. I don't always make the best of judgements, I accept that as well. All I can do is offer my apologies if I do cause hurt and pain, for that is usually not my intent. I don't view myself as a malicious entity.
I don't believe it's possible to take back what is said once it is said, because when you say something out from the depths of hesitation, those are the things that are most true to you; because truth is difficult. I have no desire to portray myself as perfect, or more noble or moral than I truly am, which is why I refuse to delete any entries I make. If nothing else I wish to be honest, and that if I am to be judged, then judge me for the sum of my parts; including my weaker petty moments, not just my triumphs.
ENERGY █████ Slightly recomposed.
ENDURING TECHNOLOGIES INFO
Current R.A.I.S. Donation Total: $432.38
Next Page: Sep 22nd
█ I'm just making this journal entry mostly to bump the previous one off my front page. I don't believe in lying to myself, and that the things I say and express are something true to me. I'm not always tactful, I accept that. I don't always make the best of judgements, I accept that as well. All I can do is offer my apologies if I do cause hurt and pain, for that is usually not my intent. I don't view myself as a malicious entity.
I don't believe it's possible to take back what is said once it is said, because when you say something out from the depths of hesitation, those are the things that are most true to you; because truth is difficult. I have no desire to portray myself as perfect, or more noble or moral than I truly am, which is why I refuse to delete any entries I make. If nothing else I wish to be honest, and that if I am to be judged, then judge me for the sum of my parts; including my weaker petty moments, not just my triumphs.
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Additionally, I feel it can be fairly said that people in America can afford this brand of arrogance more than most, so it would stand to reason that the less enlightened among them would lean towards it. Perhaps that's just my perspective as somebody growing up in a western country that isn't America. Something as simple as the entertainment industry, which is dominated by American media, quickly causes you to realise that yours is not the only country in the world, but to live within America is to be exposed to fewer outside influences, as well of a constant barrage of hyper-patriotism.
I'm at great pains to word this comment in such a way that it doesn't read as an indictment of America - I'm not suggesting that Americans are arrogant, just that I can see some influences that can potentially cause arrogance. Arrogance can happen anywhere. I'm also not suggesting that I, as a healthy white (yellow?) male, am not in a privileged position that can foster ignorance of those who are not.
Finally, even though I don't think you have anything to apologise for, I admire you for doing so, and for wishing to leave the previous journal as evidence rather than hide from it and portray yourself inaccurately.
PS: Just wanted to clarify, I'm not American, nor am I defending American jingoism, just noting it seems to be a common issue along mankind's history.
"Modesty never hurts."
Unintentional wisdom is some of the best wisdom.