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I was incredibly wrong and apparently a raging hypocrite
14 years ago
Today I found out that I may well be, and have always been, bipolar, also known as being manic-depressive.
First, I was blind. I'll get to that later. But most importantly, I broke my own rules. I assumed I knew what bi-polar disorder was, and only applied a simplified/stereotypical definition. I even criticized my ex for claiming to be a manic depressive, saying that if she had been, I'd have had a clean house once in a while.
Mania isn't what I thought. I can try to make the excuse that it was one of nearly infinite things that I had no reason to research further, but that's not true because my father had it, meaning logically, I should have learned (or been taught?!?!) about it so I could know if I got or had it because it has strong hereditary tendencies as far as I recall finding out. Mania includes things like racing thoughts, risky spending, bouts of energy, unusual diet or weight changes, especially weight loss - all symptoms I have been exhibiting very recently, but also previously and it only takes one episode, apparently, to cause a diagnosis. I won't accept meds except lithium, and only on trial. My biggest concern, get this, is that I would lose my ability to solve so many problems, such as coming up with the idea for the rally (okay, bad example, that's a bit hairbrained I know...) If lithium does that, no lithium. Period. I can cope, especially if I get help, which seems to be soon to come perhaps. And I'll only accept lithium after confirmation of bipolar disorder through chemical analysis or however they test to see if your brain is out of balance. Of course, that's iff (not a typo, look it up.) its available.
Now that I'm done, I'll retrace my steps a bit and talk about my ex. I'm not referring to Siege, I'm referring to someone else (not EVEN going to mention who, it's that bad. Let's just say F.U.B. And honestly, it doesn't matter a damn whether she was bipolar or not. She was a psychopath, morally worse than Siege because she went around getting guys to get her pregnant so she could get more welfare. Seriously. She then abandoned the babies. I would have been the fourth father, but she found a sucker after me and now has four abandoned children (last I heard.)
I test for psychopathy in all my potentials now...
Anyway, there you have it, Rex admitting he was extremely wrong. Enjoy it.
It's really just a weird coincidence. What I related to you was that I thought I was, but was told I wasn't. Then yesterday I found out I probably am, and that the reason I never considered it is because I didn't fully research the disorder. The post is irony. And I guess it may have been bait too. Figured Smash would find a way around my bans (5 now) and show what an ass he is. You see, I bore no responsibility for researching what bipolar disorder is.
And as far as that woman goes. That's exactly the type of person that should be sterilized. Something like that is just wrong to everyone involved in it.
I don't talk about it much because its really not important that people know about who she is and my experiences aren't really relevant. But she was also a psychopath, which when combined with the fact that the only other person who lived with me as a lover was a psychopath says to me that I'm prone to being taken advantage by them. Well, I was. Not anymore.
Indeed. Only what people need to know.
FA did block the comments, but it remains to be seen if they will ban the account.