So I am at this shoot and I've updated my Facebook status like 5 times in the last 5 minutes. It's kinda shameful I know, but I don't got much else to do. Anyway there are about 3 things I've done in the last week that I either should not have done or knew better than and did it anyway. Regardless I am stuck with my terrible or foolish decisions and I just wish I had my little shoulder devil telling me what I should do or not to do so I could just do the opposite of what he told me to do so I would know what was the best choice and could follow that mode of thinking for my life.

No one is all good or all bad, and the devil and angel on your shoulder aren't the Physical forms of your evil or good self. They are the strong and weak willed descisions for every choice you make. And I feel if I knew what a weak willed person would choose and what a strong willed person would choose I could be happier being sure of what category the decision I chose fit under. Was I doing what truly was the best decision for me, or was I just doing what was making me happy for the moment?

all I really want to be is a happy camper. I generally am if people aren't pushing my buttons. But now that I've been pushing my own buttons I dont know how to react. I keep doing things that bug myself and its driving me up the wall.

If I could do one thing this year at school it would be to get outta my head and to stop over analyzing what I do or have done. I hope that I can say things and not be afraid of what will come from it. Accepting the past and that shits going to happen is a tough lesson to learn. Luckily there's no homework, there's just a lot of classes for this skill.