My name is lory, and i am 19 years old shortly about to turn 20 in five days now sence it is midnight. As I know you can tell by now I am a proud happy furry but my life as a furry has not been a easy road, nor has my life before converting to a furry. All of my life I have been short and physically unable to spell and I am not the perfect size 0 perfect tit model in life so most guys have made fun of me calling me a worthless pieace of crud all my life, slaming me into lockers and even throwing me down 2 flights of stairs in my school. Sence I had no other tallent then to draw and had rarly any friends in school I became the outcast no one even wanted to pick up there noses to or better yet they didn't even want to pretend I exsisted in life. I was underweight till about 8 years old and it wasn't purposly it was due to a very high matabolism and when i hit 9 all my delayed growth spurts caught up with me causing me to gain weight in my mid section and only grow a few inches taller. Due to the extream amount of growth my body took (kids size to a size 10 jrs pants) I gained strech marks that really don't phase me but other girl rubbed in my face about the ugly marks on my skin calling me a cow. I knew sence I was differnt as a kid I always pretended to be a animal and never wanted to be aroumd other kids so I locked myself in nature and animals so when age 13 hit and I learned the term ''furry'' back then which was alot better and realistic to most furrys then sadly it is today. I was afraid to tell my friends and family about what I was so I hid myself in many video games, online rpgs and art to exspress what I was hiding deep inside my human skin. Online I found many furries who I began to talk to and some who gave me a new respect to my choice about being one, one of the people I rember is a girl I called ''tinny'' due to here only standing 4'8'' tall she was also a furry and taught me the world of ''fursonas'' she did not make one she really liked, and still me without one we decided to design eachothers sonas which would be lory my number one and only sona who represent the true forum of me. As I continued to play my online world games, often getting lost in which world was real anymore because in my actul life I sufferd alot torment but online it was a bit better my friends didn't judge me and those who did I could just shove off and never see again, Then of course I met alot of guys I never was a fan of girls sence I am a tomboy in real life women in my school tended to be the prepper popular sluts the type who opened there legs to get anything including A's in school though there test scores where in the negitives. My home life was never easy my sister died at birth and my brother didn't even know i exsisted, My mother didn't respect me because I wasn't the A+ follow in her shoes child she wanted so at ever turn she pushed into my face why couldn't I be better, why didn't I try harder, Why couldn't I climb faster. Marry a rich guy and kill him just so she could be rich and happy for the rest of her life, everyone of my friends had issues to her and no matter what she didn't like them the second she met them. Then came my first boyfriend of 1 year and 5 months he was a sweet guy whose family was trouble, they never cared for him and his mom and dad split when he was younge. His step father hated hi and tryed to throw him out on every toss and turn and his father just plane didn't care it was kiddy love I guess back then I though he was the world, and nothing else would matter and my mother knew my grades where low and used my just gained relationship as an excuse and broke us up, of course I dated him behind her back only caused a bigger war. Then I found out what it felt like to be cheated on mabey about 6 months into our relationship he went to a party with friends and a hot girl met up with him and he slept with her. Of course stupid me took him back but I told him I would never trust him or have sex with him until he got teasted, Acouple months later he hurt me and his friend told him he was stupid and was risking loosing the best dam thing he could ever have in his life so we made it a bit further down the road and he was walking to his class and i grabbed his backpack like he did to me and told him hurry up. Then the unthinkable happen he grabbed my hand holding it to hos backpack and shook my wriste in the opsit direction breaking my hand in only a few minutes, it was sore but i didn't think much of it so i went to the nurse and said I just fell she checked it out and said it only looked sprained but that I should go to the doctors and get a ex ray. One long road trip and 1 cast later I finally got the nerves to tell my mom and that only caused a big war, I agreed to get a restraining order and the cops treated me like I asked him to break my arm, the first 8 times he broke restraing order nothing happend and after 1 refusal to be allowed to call the poliec at school I found myself ripped out of school till action was taken to his violations. What didn't help is none the school camera work, his friends and school staff defended him but adventuly he got permante ocs, the day I returned to school i got 20 threats about being jumped + killed as soon as I left school grounds which in turned made me go back to the police and try again with no advail due to his adhd. After about few months all the subject was dropped and I thought my ordeal was over but no I was suffering with victims syndrom (a popular thing omung abused/raped women) its where you constintly look over your shoulder in fear it will happen again no matter who or what you do.

I stayed pretty much singel due to my fear after what happend, but after a while I figured I should date again. I did skip my first relationship but lets skip that its a bit of a worst story in life, After that I tryed mainly to not jump out of my boat to date anyone I kind of stuck to my fantasy world content with its easy standers and kind people then i found a furry guy named josh and I dated him online at this point I was 18 still dumb about the real dangers of what could happen and the dangers and issue with it but we got to talking online daily, started talking on messanger and h moved to webcam at which point I didn't have but I took pictures and videos to show I was not fake. Adventully after a couple months my home life started to get worse ( private details here) so I decided to run, it was not my option to run I went to school he drove see family and stopped by my school to just hug me and my body just went ''no more'' last thing I knew i was in his car driving to a new wonderfull home. His mother loved me, the house mates hated us and literly kicked us out so went moved with his friend who where awsome as all hell. They talked to me before they went to work, allowed me to use there labtops pilffer there video games and even cooked me amazing meals. I never was happy until I went there but my mom kept saying how I was a high school dropout never going to get my education and she knew I was a idotic child. So i went back on the terms I would move with a friend but my moms sappy I AM SORRY made me stay and I idoticly told her about furrys (bad idea.

sooo i can't type no more but it gets better take it from me <3

-  lory-ixtar

wow so many stories in one day @.@