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It's quite a week so far...
14 years ago
To anyone reading this, sorry, only place to write a journal I have left...
In any case....
--- Sunday ---
I got word from
bariki about how he felt our relationship was going. Citing distance and my potential inability to immigrate to wherever he would end up (staying in the UK or moving to US), he decided that it was time to end our relationship for both our sakes.
I did try to see if we could work through the problems but any plans that would have been possible would be too long and too far in the future to make it work, it was a problem in immediacy and distance. Because I still love him greatly and I didn't want to hurt him by trying to persuade him to stay with me, I though it would be best not to pursue it more and to accept the inevitable, our breakup.
It was a great 2.5 - 3 years even with it being such a distance, those years are ones that I never thought I would have. I still love him but as the saying goes, sometimes you have to let go of the ones you love because you love them so much. Also I think I might still be in shock about this.
Of course this will make MFF difficult this year because that's where we met in 2008. It was also, last year, in the week after MFF on Bariki's birthday, that we got engaged. Difficult won't begin to describe what it'll be like.
--- Monday ---
It was Thanksgiving, we had a great meal and I had decided to tell some of the local people that I consider friends and some friends that I could only contact online about what happened Sunday.
--- Tuesday ---
Thankfully nothing of value happened, except D&D
--- Wednesday ---
I had a migraine starting, locked myself out of the house without keys and phone, eventually made it to work an hour late and was feeling so bad that I came back home two hours later.
Yeah, it's been quite a week so far, hope everyone else's is going at least a wee bit better.
In any case....
--- Sunday ---
I got word from
bariki about how he felt our relationship was going. Citing distance and my potential inability to immigrate to wherever he would end up (staying in the UK or moving to US), he decided that it was time to end our relationship for both our sakes. I did try to see if we could work through the problems but any plans that would have been possible would be too long and too far in the future to make it work, it was a problem in immediacy and distance. Because I still love him greatly and I didn't want to hurt him by trying to persuade him to stay with me, I though it would be best not to pursue it more and to accept the inevitable, our breakup.
It was a great 2.5 - 3 years even with it being such a distance, those years are ones that I never thought I would have. I still love him but as the saying goes, sometimes you have to let go of the ones you love because you love them so much. Also I think I might still be in shock about this.
Of course this will make MFF difficult this year because that's where we met in 2008. It was also, last year, in the week after MFF on Bariki's birthday, that we got engaged. Difficult won't begin to describe what it'll be like.
--- Monday ---
It was Thanksgiving, we had a great meal and I had decided to tell some of the local people that I consider friends and some friends that I could only contact online about what happened Sunday.
--- Tuesday ---
Thankfully nothing of value happened, except D&D
--- Wednesday ---
I had a migraine starting, locked myself out of the house without keys and phone, eventually made it to work an hour late and was feeling so bad that I came back home two hours later.
Yeah, it's been quite a week so far, hope everyone else's is going at least a wee bit better.
*hugs*
I haven't talked with Bariki too much more though we do plan on continuing to be friends. I know I'm still a little broken up by it but I hear it gets better every day
Strangely it hasn't hit hard, yet. We will see at MFF how I'm doing...