so, a couple days ago, i was having a really horrid nightmare and it was about 1 month before the world was supposed to end, so i killed myself by cutting my throat. i woke up, sweating and i had a thought; if i killed myself, i wouldnt have to be afraid of the world ending. I almost did it too, but a little voice inside me said 'dont do it! think about all the things that would happen! the world might not even end and you would have killed yourself for nothing!' so i didnt kill myself. i climbed back into bed and curled into a little ball, shaking.

Now, i was afraid to post this. idk, but i just was. Please, i would REALLY appreciate some comforting words right now. in other words, im having a panic attack.