For a long time I tried to convince myself that I wasn't Christian anymore. That it was repressive, bigoted, intolerant, and responsible for the world's problems. I even went and followed Gods hardly anyone actually worships anymore, rather than God.

But as I've decided to finally settle in and get on with my life, I've come to the decision that I was baptized, I went to first communion, I went through confirmation... I might as well stick with it. This isn't changing anything of my core personality. I'm still who I am, just as I always have been. I'm not going to try and change anyone and don't worry about me being ANY different than I was.

I believe that God loves us all, even if we don't fit into the mold exactly, and that no one should be FORCED to take a path they don't want to. One has to come about it on their own. It's not always easy. But I'm confident that things are going to improve from here. Because dammit, I'm TRYING now.

And because I've stopped running.